Bulletins (diaries) of a creative G..enius ;) 2019

How far down the rabbit hole do I go? Read all the way down to find out… 😉

Let’s start off with a little request… hey G.. (od)… for once… could we have a story… where you just give me the strength (gratitude) to simply enjoy the moment, but with as much empathy as I can… AMEN (Ra… 😉

How does the lucid dream play out? June 2019

When you get to the point (where you are high enough 😉 ) to understand what everything (in life) is all about… what do you do?

You share… your thoughts and hope to help those who are struggling… you help light their way.

What I’m about to share is something that is not easy to understand and can only be truly understood by experiencing it yourself. It seems as if no amount of description or examples will get you to see what I call true reality. Many of you will see what I’m describing on this website as fantasy… or simply… you might just say I’m crazy. But that’s okay… because I know I’m not crazy. I’m just really creative… and I can see all possibilities. It just takes a little faith to create a true reality… you’ll see 😉

It’s basically the idea that life is just a lucid dream (movie, game) and we are the ones producing, directing, creating or acting it out (in the form of a movie)… for ALL to see. Who is ALL?..

Well, that would be everyone (aka… God) through what I’ve experienced. Now if you don’t believe in God (defined by a specific religion or just in a spiritual sense like karma, kundalini energy, Chi, Tao, etc)… you can go the psychology route and call it Infinite Consciousness (or Super Consciousness), which would include sub-consciousness.

You could go the scientific route and call it Pure Energy (which may be “dark” or invisible / clear) and would also include dark matter (what I believe is potential matter that first comes to us as thoughts in our dreams). Along this route you could also look at this reality as a form of computer program (matrix) where the pixels (subatomic particles) vibrate to life through the laws of nature (physics, biology,chemistry).

Simply put…. IT is everything…

Whatever you want to call IT, or however you want to perceive IT… you will know IT when IT happens to you. Trust me… you won’t be able to deny IT any longer! 😉

Just don’t panic when you can see / feel IT, because IT is very overwhelming. Remember, this is your movie / lucid dream (or game) and you can control IT by having faith in what you believe. So you can make this movie /game/dream play out however you want and I hope you choose the good things… especially the ending!

Let’s begin the journey… shall we?.. 😉

So… how do you beat the game (control the dream / direct the movie)??? 6-15-2019

You can call this shit show… what we call life… it’s just a very high tech (hyper D((imensional))… tv) game. Now I believe (from experience) this game gets more difficult the more aware (enlightened) you become. The more you become aware of IT… the more aware IT becomes of you. AND IT WILL FIGHT BACK!!!

So… here’s is my latest analysis (apart from my book)… The game is going to knock you down… just like any challenging game would. IT keeps you in check… and keeps you coming back for more (keeps you interested). And this will hurt, because you will lose things (family, friends, jobs, money, love… etc.). So the game (of life) is designed to create a shit show and will test you all the time. IT will give you mazes to get out of… where you feel trapped.

This game is not going to be easy to win… in fact… stop trying to win!  The game’s sole purpose is to give you life (experience) so you evolve into something higher. Trying to win will only cause you to feel defeated and this is what causes depression (in my opinion).  If you keep thinking there is an ultimate end to this game you will be disappointed.  You will always be presented with something better to achieve until even being Superman is not enough, or the game will have to think up super villains / a weakness (like kryptonite) to keep you in check.  So… play the game for the pure enjoyment of it and stop keeping score.  This is where we are all fucking up the system that was designed with the most incredible precision.  This game was designed to provide “experience”… that’s IT!  IT then becomes our choice on whether or not the experience is a good or bad one.  I know this sounds very simple and a bit cliché, but IT is the Truth.  And IT will set you free!

You… being consciousness… will never be able to escape the game (movie / dream). IT continues for eternity. All that will happen is your surroundings will change colors and you will find a different structure (body) to occupy for a certain amount of time. So stop fighting IT so much and have a little faith (in yourself or at least some form of higher power… your choice) that everything will turn out for the best! Enjoy the ups… learn from the downs… and if you don’t let the fear get out of control and not let IT become you… the fear will not be able to manifest itself in this reality. Remember that faith (belief) ultimately controls life… so don’t let IT control you… believe in yourself!

The key… is to live in the moment as much as you can and be GRATEFUL for all that you have (experiences you gain) ! Dream of a positive future and let go of the negative past. You can remember the good times and the lessons from the bad times, but don’t dwell in the future or the past… you will lose opportunities to experience a wonderful present moment, with whoever you are with. Remember who you are and who everyone else is… “who who… 55… have some sympathy for the Devil… learn to Focus like Will Smith and Margo Robbie’s characters… and the moment won’t pass you by!”

Now… when does the movie (story) start to get weird?  6/16/2019

IT… starts to get weird when you connect to the ether.  And you know IT is everywhere and in everything.  You’ll pop your 3rd eye and the sky becomes alive and you’ll realize that there are messages everywhere and in everything.  The final hurdle is understanding this when your not buzzing… and IT can’t hurt you… not if you don’t let IT.  So roll with the punches (let them call you crazy… because you know it’s pure genius) and as long as you don’t break any major laws… you can talk your way out of or into anything if you believe what you say.  Just know who you are talking with and that IT is you too.  So check out my videos on You Tube… type in shit show teaser… watch it… then go to the link for my WTF channel and watch the other videos… Some are funny… some are a little weird… but they were designed that way to throw you off so you don’t see the “real” message behind the (reel).  They are kind of Wizard of Oz…ish.  Who’s controlling the magic code… but if you can get beyond the weirdness… open your mind… you’ll see the code I’m sending (I made it pretty obvious) and you’ll realize it’s brilliant.  And you will start to see the brilliance in everything in existence and how we all play a role.  Now with every story there are good people and bad people to create a balance that makes reality possible.  You’ll also see why bad shit happens to you and it doesn’t seem fair.  Like when a golfer stripes one down the middle of the fairway and ends up in a divot.  You’ll understand why luck was designed into the game of golf and you can’t pull it out of the divot.  Can you overcome bad luck by staying in control (calm) and getting yourself out of the depression you found yourself in… get it? 😉 If you can… you can defeat mental illness (especially depression).  Just flip it (like George Costanza) and believe you are telling the truth… when you know you are a genius.  This is how you get through the weird part of the story.  Hopefully my video from Father’s Day 2019 explains this… then google the commercial with the mirrors creating multidimensional / directional reality (Deloitte)… it’s an incredible message.  Similar to my video with mirrors on my Facebook Page… IAMwill.  Those videos are older (when I first started awakening the spirit in my body) and have some cool dogs in them for entertainment. 😉  

Side note … Another good commercial (during the final round of the U.S. Open golf tournament) I saw that shows how the strings work holding on to particles in space (creating different images based on angles) is the Lexus commercial about experience.

And if you a person who watches Game of Thrones and you get to season 3 episode 4 and when the Kingslayer (after he loses his hand) wants to give up (because he believes he’s lost too much) and the lady knight (with the short blonde hair) motivates him not to give up… this is an important message when you awaken and you seem to have lost control (lost everything).. don’t give up!

And to keep things light… time for a little harmless, cheesy sexual joke… why did the plug enter the socket?  He wanted to be turned on! lol 😉

How do you know what the right thing to do is? 6/19/2019

So when you discover true consciousness (and I’m not trying to sound condescending here, because I know many people will misinterpret that statement as a negative… it has nothing to do with intellectual ability… just a higher awareness of what consciousness really is… and you’ll find meaning in everything… beyond what you already know). It seems as if things start to separate from you even if you try hard to keep things light and within the zeitgeist of the culture. The game (dream / movie) will counter your moves by bringing in set backs. Just when you think you’ve achieved something… something new pops up. And you will see it in their eyes when you interact with people. Just make sure you look at them as someone there to help you… not there to hurt you… and the game (movie, dream) will head in a positive direction.

Do you enjoy the moment of each situation you are in (and with whoever you are with) and stop worrying about if things will work out? Just have fun with whatever life brings you through relationships, work, etc. and the game will stop fucking with you so much.

That is truly the right thing to do when you are presented with the day to day challenges that IT brings you. And eventually you will find the things you are looking for! 😉

So why does IT fuck with you? 6-21-2019

In my latest version of my first published book, Edge of the Kingdom (that you will find in my latest published book… Finding First Light… aka… I AM (AM I) Lucid Dreaming… ), I write about how God (or whatever you want to call IT) fucks with you. I believe IT does this to make you human. IT has to drain your energy on a daily basis in order for you to be mortal and eventually die. So IT presents you with obstacles / challenges / pain / etc. in order for you to slowly wear down (erode away) over time, thus only giving you a specific amount of time for which to gain experience (knowledge). Now it can be something that is simple like getting a trojan horse on your computer and having to spend 400 bucks and 3 hours of your valuable time with some customer service rep who you can barely understand (and you really question whether it was a setup and put there originally by the software company to scam you out of more money) . Or it can be something tragic that seems to make the evening news. I’m guessing it all depends on your karma, but we all know nobody in this world is completely free from being fucked with by IT. If I’m correct about everyone being a part of the energy of God (which is eternal and can’t be destroyed)… then what has to be destroyed is the physical body. And this is also why I believe we sleep. We need to be recharged (like our phones), but I believe we experience dark energy and dark matter the most when we are asleep. Some how we plug into the cosmos when we sleep and dark energy gives us new life (new energy for the next day… while dark matter gives us moving pictures to entertain us while we are in recharging mode. But eventually our batteries will run out and we experience death. Which is a good thing I guess because why would God only want to experience only one body for all eternity? Which would also be very lonely all by yourself, so God loves variety / diversity and thus has plenty of time / lives to experience an infinite amount of good and bad realities.

Now we (as specific vibrational energy) get only so much time to gain awareness and raise our frequency (within our specific bodies) to the next level (and move into a new / higher dimensional reality… which religion would call heaven). So God presents us with the challenges / problems to see how we react to them. Will we eventually lose self control and go nuts and do something harmful to ourselves or others (lowering our frequencies)… or will we rise up to the challenge and take the “high” road? What choices do we make and can we control our emotions? Can we make it to the next higher dimensions or will we be recycled back to something similar or lower in this dimension? I guess God (IT) only know… 😉

Why else does IT fuck with us? Getting fucked with makes us forget who we really are… the consciousness of God / IT. If we truly believed we were God… we would gain ultimate power and would get anything we wanted and would never experience pain. So failure (pain) keeps us from being God, thus, making us human. So God designed itself to forget itself and through us can have a “real” experience in this world and not be just a dream. Imagine if you never experienced any setbacks (found heaven)… life would get pretty boring after awhile (like Eve explains in season 4 of the Netflix series Lucifer to why she came back to earth).

So God Almighty created us (and lives through us subconsciously), but is really controlling everything. So, when you do something that aggravates or hurts someone, you are helping to keep others from realizing that they are God too and making them real (becoming human). Now yes, we do have free will (or choice) to do good or bad things, but that’s part of making the experience real and making us forget we are part of the Almighty. It’s all part of a brilliantly designed system… don’t forget that! 😉

So what’s a Small Town Boy to do Dustin Lynch in the Current Mood? Especially when you see geese running down the road (single file) and you’re laughing your ass off… 😉 6-22-2019

Anyways… so, when you get to the part in my story, where I know where I’m at (limbo)and I’m trying to bring everyone with me (to the heavenly side). You start to support me and encourage me to win the race… to the iron throne… knowing I will destroy IT… and I won’t need Drogon! 😉

Now back to reality (but go schizo-creative). I know it sucks that it has come to this, but I didn’t have a choice. I went deep undercover to see the underworld (Hades) and it’s not that scary. You just have to take control of the story and never look back. Everything happens for a reason… and if you believe that, you end up with no regrets. Live a little in the moment for when it eventually comes out… you can handle the pressure of being God (in your world). Yes, I am showing how to coexist when we’re all looking for Super-light (aka dark-white). And you can convert this to any religion (including science / atheism) when you talk about how to see true reality. Just don’t let go of the idea of heaven. Don’t believe hell is stronger when you sober up… Caspice… 😉

Now on to the good stuff… 6/25

I’m here to warn you… super consciousness is coming. IT is an awareness beyond what you already know. At first (when IT hits you), you will be in awe of IT and want IT to never leave. You will think you have discovered something no one else has because you can see things that are beyond belief and IT will make you feel like you are the first (Alpha). You become overwhelmed and want to share this with the world, but you will be brought to your knees because you will see IT everywhere and in everything. You will eventually realize IT has been here all along and now it feels like you are the last to know (Omega). IT will then start to taunt you and scare you… and make you feel like you have gone crazy and need help. But deep down you know you are sane and can just see the membrane (remember the song? lol). Don’t believe IT when IT tries to convince you that you need help or you are just plain wrong. Just stay in control and only listen to what is good. Discovering Pandora’s Box (aka the Holy Grail) is not easy to deal with and you will question whether or not letting this out is a good thing (because IT tries to scare you that you will create a Bird Box scenario). But on the other hand… you can see how IT could change the world for the better (and possibly create heaven on earth). So what do you do? Do you create more subliminal messages by creating another fictional story… cash in on the money… gain some glory… bask in the fame? Or do you sacrifice… tell the truth… take on the pain?

How do you escape the pain of Pandora’s Box (all Hell)? BE PATIENT… and wait for (pay attention to) the signs that will guide your way. Put a Message in a Bottle (like the Police)… and believe one day the message will get thru. Understand when you hear REM singing about Losing My Religion… who is talking to you. When you see God as everything… IT will be abundantly clear. And you will see this in the 3 books I created (now combined in Finding First Light / I Am, Am I Lucid Dreaming…), when I talk about seeing the clear that Didrick Thulin sings about in Dancer (kygo remix). When you close your eyes… you see Nothing…. and Everything (black to white). Just don’t let the messages drive you to do something insane, because they can do that if you are not careful and stay in control. Be like the Kingslayer and reveal the truth to gain the trust of your lady protector (knight). And when they know you sacrificed your oath to slay the Mad King… you did it for what was right… and now Lucifer doesn’t seem like such a bad guy, even though he’s sleeping with his sister (right next to his dead son)! GOT IT? 😉

One last thing before I end today’s post. Don’t give up either (like the Kingslayer wanted to do before Brienne of Tarth motivated his hope) and “go the distance” to find your Field of Dreams. At first everyone will think you are crazy when you are about to lose the farm (your mind) for betting on a Dead Man’s Party (by Oingo Boingo) in the form of a baseball game. Just have some true faith that the Good Stuff will come in the end. Don’t go for the iron throne… IT’s not worth IT (you will know what I AM talking about when you get this part in the story). IT’s best if you let the truth out slowly and see if IT catches fire Katniss… be the savior (Mockingjay) and Neo will prevail (over the virus agent Smith) and unify The Matrix. Can you see the connections (strings)? 😉

Finally, stop capitalizing it… don’t make it larger than LIFE!

When you can finally see The Grid (and you’re sober listening to Daft Punk… Tron Legacy)… do you write about it? 6/27/2019

WTF… you got nothing to lose… get it? 😉

So every once in awhile it’s good to throw in some scientific theory (into your creative story) to show people your just not some crazy religious wack-job whose trying to promote one psycho religious doctrine over another (leading to Armageddon)… or trying to scare the be-Jesus (get it?) out of everyone that the end times (final revelations of the Apocalypse) are here.

Now don’t worry if you can’t do the math and solve some equation that would only be found on a MIT chalkboard in the middle of a hallway. Just have some Good Will and start Hunting for the answers deep in your mind.

I’ve written quite a bit about scientific theory in the past (especially my essay to FQXi back in 2017… that I included in my latest book… check it out!), but it’s all from an imagery standpoint with no math to back it up. It’s just about picturing what quantum must look like if you go hyper-small. Just dive below the balls (but get your mind off of porn… lol) to see what is holding us up in the black hole of space (just beyond Uranus… lol!). Remember nothing is impossible, so blackness (darkness) is not nothing… it starts the “clear” fabric of space. This is the start of the membrane that holds the particles (moved by gravity) in place. Gravity is just pressure (probably dark energy) that comes from all directions, pushing / pulling anything (starting with pictures or pure light of events that are frozen in time) that will eventually form into solid matter / particles (as gravity turns ((forces)) the two dimensional pictures into 3-D colored balls). Now the pictures are small enough to pass through the grid of the membrane (as dark matter can pass through anything). Think of the grid like a window screen where air can pass through it. Now when the pictures (that come from the infinite possibilities of imagination… aka… the multiverse) form into 3D particles they are now big enough to be caught by the grid. Now to create a story (aka life)… the right pictures (from the multiverse in the form of dark matter or antimatter) join together (forming atoms) that are now creating the story being played out over time. Ultimately the story is creating itself (like Hodor… GOT IT)! And the only way it can happen is through faith (belief)… it’s fucking amazing!!!

That’s probably enough for today… maybe tomorrow (but it’s actually today) I’ll creatively describe how black holes (pupils of space) are where the fabric of space (the grid membrane) goes so deep it forms a tunnel (wormhole or string)… that the pressure from gravity is so unimpeded… the pictures (or light) can move so fast (aka hyper or super light)… they disappear! They vibrate the black (invisible) tunnel back to life… looks like electricity when it reaches visible light speed. (I have a diagram on one of my You Tube videos that displays how it works). It’s how the grid gets vibrated to life and catch the pictures (eventually shaped into particles) that are moved by gravitational waves.

Stay tuned! 😉

And Thank you Brendan Burchard… for getting me back on track… writing for the pure enjoyment of it… not worrying if I’m gonna make it big.

How do you awaken (find personal enlightenment)? 6/28/2019

First of all… what is enlightenment? To me… enlightenment is a state of awareness where you can see (a multiverse of) infinite possibilities and the ability to relate it to all things in life (in this universe). That is a politically correct way to say it… the controversial way to explain it… is the ability to see God (through faith).

Why it is controversial to say God, is because most people want to define God as something specific… and now if you give them something different (then what they specifically believe)… they fight you. And they will try to crucify you (send you to hell).

Anyways… I could go on a long tangent with that but I will be missing the point of the question… but you will (eventually) realize how the multiverse can send you in any direction to explore reality. This is why it is difficult to explain enlightenment… how do you stay focused?

Now… enlightenment (I believe) can be achieved in one of two ways (the long hard road… or the easy shortcut). The long hard road would be to cleanse your body (of most toxins) by eating a strict organic (vegan) diet and mostly drinking purified water. Also mentally / spiritually practicing a lot of meditation or prayer (cleansing the mind). With years of effort and practice, your pineal gland (third eye) in your brain will activate and you will understand everything (become fully aware of reality and see the connections of the multiverse with the universe… aka… God). You will have raised your vibrational state of your spirit… (mind / physical body) to a higher level, because you will have gotten rid of a lot of excess dark matter (that came to life) that weighs you down (slows your vibration). So toxins (whether they are physical… like fluoride or chemicals in cigarettes, or mental… like greed or jealousy) need to be removed from your spirit if you want to take flight and see the super-light.

The shortcut (wormhole) to enlightenment would be to use drugs. Spiritually (I believe) drugs are accelerants that give you extra energy (which raise your vibration and allow you to experience more information… see more dark matter / super-light). Problem is they are too fast for the spirit and cause you to go a little crazy (you become intoxicated) and you do and say things you don’t normally do (which can cause problems). You enter another dimension of reality (mentally) and you start to lose control of your physical body. Your spirit is in two different places (within the multiverse and universe) at the same time. They are also hard on the body because the extra energy creates excessive wear and tear (similar to driving your car too fast… it will wear down faster) and why hard core addicts look very run down. But if you want to “peek” at the multiverse in a flash (opening your pineal gland quickly, but temporarily)… drugs are the way to do it.

This is why most drugs are illegal in my opinion. Enlightenment sets you free from the physical pain / control of this world. Those that are in power don’t want people to be free… thus making most drugs illegal. Now they (the powerful) can’t stop you naturally, but they try to slow people down by either putting or allowing physical toxins in the environment… including ever increasing negativity in media. I could get into some interesting conspiracy theories, but will save it for another day.

Now, I would have to agree (with Buddhist doctrine) that achieving enlightenment is best doing it naturally (drug free) because the mind and body stay together as it (the spirit) vibrates to a higher level. You will be able to function better with this reality’s challenges and achieve a greater state of health (physically and emotionally)… staying balanced. You just need to enjoy the long process that it takes to get there… and you have to accept that you probably won’t get to experience the rush…

The rush… of getting high is really cool… and definitely addicting… so if you choose this way… be careful! I wasn’t… and almost lost everything…

The code… it’s all about entertainment! 6/29/2019

Now I went through the wormhole (gained enlightenment) blindly using drugs (where I had really no idea what I was getting into) and I did some “crazy” things as a result that changed my life dramatically. Now my drug of choice is marijuana… why? It is the safest drug out there as it is physically nonaddictive and impossible to overdose on. It does have some negatives as it causes you to get “stuck” in time and now you don’t get anything productive done (in the real world) and it causes you to forget a lot of shit! Now there are reasons for these that I could explain, but once again… I need to focus on the topic and will have to save them for another time. But marijuana is what helped me to see “the code” of enlightenment / God.

When I “popped” (opened my pineal gland) back in Sept 2016… I became aware that everything is a code. The amazing thing about the code is that it is right under our noses (subliminal… ((subatomic))…) and (I’m guessing) most people cannot sense it. You will really start to wonder who is aware of the code (enlightened) and who is not. This may drive you crazy if you become consumed with trying to figure it out and may motivate some people to do awful things (like mass shootings), for which I can elaborate on down the road (I’m calling it… The Sabotage…).

I do believe most people in the entertainment industry are aware of the code… like famous authors (Dan Brown), actors (Morgan Freeman), musicians (Led Zeppelin), and even famous scientists (Max Tegmark). I can’t say for sure because they don’t relate it (the code) to a personal level… it’s always diverted to some form of entertainment (subliminally). And if you do question them (using subconscious language), will they just call you crazy?

Not to be diverted by that question… I’ve come to realize that it is all about entertainment. Everything is meant to entertain us at some level and we enjoy certain forms of entertainment more than others. It’s all meant (whether it’s work or recreation) to occupy our time (using space).

It really comes down to understanding how space works (which is difficult). We need separation (through the use of negative energy or conflict / fear / anxiety) to create space between conscious thoughts so they have the ability to manifest (into real experiences… using time ((which you can see in the movie “Lucy” near the end))…).

Now too much separation (space) would cause the universe to explode (like fission), just as too much connection (basically love or positive energy) would cause the universe to implode (like fusion)… so we need a balance between the two to create space as we know it today.

Is this why the universe is expanding at an ever increasing rate? As more people (high levels of consciousness) enter this universe (on this planet) worrying (creating negative energy) about their future survival and prosperity (and willing to fight for it) causing space to expand (through increasing negative energy)?

I believe this is why we also gain things and then lose things… experiencing joy… then pain (heaven and hell). It’s just polarizing energies creating space.

Now I know I went a little “big bang” on you there (and off topic a little), but this is what you will come to understand when you can see the code. And when you watch a show… like Real Time with Bill Maher like I just did from his 6/28 episode… you will see the conflict (aka the battle… or Armageddon) that goes on between energy (positive vs. negative / good vs. evil / light vs darkness / etc.). Now who’s the darkness, who’s the light? It’s a matter of perspective (choice)!

So this brings up an interesting question… is Bill Maher “aware” of this and actively (consciously) contributing to this process (creating the code… aka reality)… or… is he unaware (unenlightened) and God (aka subconsciousness) working through him (creating the code) at a subliminal (or subatomic) level? I would love ask him this question if he ever invites me on his show (and why I’ve tried to challenge him in my books). He is a self proclaimed drug user (mostly marijuana) so part of me believes he is aware, but I question this because he is also a proclaimed atheist, who doesn’t give any credence to faith… which is vital to creating reality.

To conclude this post which is starting to lose focus… when you discover the code… don’t let the code drive you crazy (and get you to do something awful… or go Bird Box…)! It’s ultimate purpose is to create reality and if you come from the perspective that it is all about entertainment… if IT (the code… aka God) is awful to you and fucks with ya… stand up to it like Russel Crowe in Gladiator… call IT out… create a cool story… make it as subliminal (fictional) as you want… but ask the question…. “are you not entertained?!” 😉

One last thing… if you don’t agree with anything I have written so far… have I at least entertained you… with my creative story? See… it’s easy to do… 😉

The code… revealed… 7/1/2019

Now (with my personal experience) when you “pop” your third eye (either naturally or using drugs), you will start to see how everything is a code written in some creative format (designed to occupy our time ((entertain us)) through life…). Whether it’s DNA that creates conscious life, chemistry that makes up certain rocks, or the unlimited human designs (imagination) of society, you will see the code in everything, and it will be at a greater understanding than what you thought you knew. You will see an “underworld” that looks the same as the world you have known all your life, but you will see consciousness like you’ve never seen it before and this world will take on an entirely new meaning. Now I could get mythological on ya and call this underworld “Hades,” but I will try to keep this in the current zeitgeist (spirit of the times) and call the underworld… “subconsciousness.”

I’m sure everyone understands that subconsciousness means that things are below are awareness (consciousness) and you could Google a cool way to envision it using Sigmund Freud’s iceberg analogy. My belief (through my personal experience) is when you open your pineal gland (third eye) in your brain, you now become aware of subconsciousness (and it becomes part of your consciousness now) and you can see messages and connections like never before. It’s a really cool experience at first and you will be in awe… and if you are in a state where you perceive your life as good… you will experience a euphoric (heaven like) reality. But beware… there is always an opposite (Hell) and you will see that too. And if you don’t learn to focus on the positive… you will lose TRUST in the good life and it will start disappearing on you (relationships will end… loss of jobs/income… declined social status… etc.) and Hell will grow. If you go to see a therapist then…. they may diagnose you as bipolar (mania / depression) and possibly delusional (schizophrenic / dementia). Now… if you let them convince you that you are mentally ill… guess what… you are! And now you are under their control and will more than likely go on their psychotropic drugs to bring you down (slow your vibration). But realize, you will start to lose who you really are (and start to Reek! GOT it?) 😉

Now if you can resist the outside pressure from society (that you are someone who suffers from some form of mental illness) you will see that what you are experiencing is actually pure GENIUS and gain an awareness that even a simple conversation you might have with someone becomes a miracle of consciousness (that reality is truly miraculous)!

Now the danger with using drugs with achieving enlightenment (being able to see the subliminal code) happens too quickly and life doesn’t seem real anymore (lacking meaning), so why work your ass off to achieve things that you are only going to lose when you die? This is where I believe many people (who use drugs) start breaking away from established norms of the time, which may lead to being ostracized from society, and why many heavy drug users end up being homeless or eventually die by overdose or suicide.

So if you can resist the pain that also comes with enlightenment and not lose yourself (like Theon Greyjoy does when Ramsay tortures him into becoming “Reek”)… you will see many revelations about the “code.”

For example… I’ve always wondered why there is no book in the Bible that was written directly by Jesus himself. I would have to assume that if Jesus were really God (incarnate) that he had the ability to write and could have penned a few words for the sake of humanity. And it wasn’t until I “popped” that I finally could see where Jesus did actually write a book in the Bible. It is revealed in the Book of Revelations in the very first sentence of the Prologue. Jesus wrote the last book of the Bible, but not directly. It was dictated to John by an angel, but the ideas are from Jesus. Similar to when a secretary types a letter dictated by the boss. Who gets the credit for writing the letter… the ideas coming from the boss or the secretary that types the actual physical letter? We all know it’s the boss. So John did not write the Book of Revelations… he only scribed it, but somehow he got credit for writing it!

So this now brings up an interesting question about consciousness (subconsciousness) regarding the code (of reality). When we (individual beings of consciousness) come up with an idea (thought)… is it really ours? Or was it dictated to us by God (or whatever you want to call IT…) and we just caused it to manifest in this world (by writing it down, drawing it up, building it… etc.)? If you want to look at it from a scientific perspective (taking God out of the equation), is this what dark matter / energy are? Is dark matter just infinite images from a multiverse of possibilities (put into motion by dark energy… creating a movie like experience) that are out there in the cosmos / ether and our brains are just running into these thoughts (and picking them up like a radio antenna)? The thoughts seem to come from nowhere, but are they just so small (quantum) that our senses (or any instrument we have designed… like the Large Hadron Collider) cannot detect them.

On a small tangent (tiny wormhole)… one person who I would love giving credit to for helping me to see the code would be my favorite author… Dan Brown. He has written many incredible books talking about codes and how they are hidden right under our noses (most notably… The DaVinci Code). He does a brilliant job intertwining fiction with actual reality, brining his fictional alter ego (Robert Langdon) into the real world of unique geographic sites and ideas (especially science and religion). Dan has been an instrumental force (to me and why my writings have elements of fiction and nonfiction in them) in the world to bringing people towards what will eventually be an “awakening,” and has definitely profited (been rewarded) from it. I would love to be able to talk with him one day and see when he first discovered the code and how it happened (was it natural or through some form of drug use?). Maybe one day… that dream (code) will come true. I’m guessing it will all depend on how much faith I have in the code that I will have a successful career as writer. But now going on 50 this year… AM I running out of time? Was I only awakened for my own benefit (so I stop taking life for granted)… or was I meant to help others awaken too and thus this blog and my latest book…. Finding First Light / I AM (AM I) Lucid Dreaming (?).

One last comment for today’s post… I do believe we will all awaken to seeing this code… and send the world in a positive direction. I realize it could go the other way and create an apocalyptic world that we fear (like in many movies). But we don’t have to go Bird Box, Hunger Games, Maze Runner, Mad Max, Matrix, Book of Eli, etc. with this world. We could truly awaken and go Venus Project (venusproject.com) and create a resource based economy that would save this planet… creating a heaven on earth! Just sayin… 😉

Have I finally written enough for this story? Read my new book and see where I AM coming from… 😉

How bout some helpful tips to help you thru the transition (thru the wormhole)? 😉 7/2/2019

I believe I written quite a lot about what I’ve experienced up to this point. I know I could have written a hell of a fictional story and totally left myself out of the picture (and kept my job and many of the relationships that were dear to me). Plus keeping it fictional is the best way to let your mind go a little crazy and people won’t question your sanity. If you start saying that the experience is real and the world will start changing around your beliefs (because of faith) and you have discovered another dimension (and how to enter it), people will break away from you (if they don’t truly love you). This is what people don’t understand about people that have drug addictions (or mental illness). They are entering other dimensions (mentally) and their world has changed before there eyes. And if the people in your life aren’t really strong or don’t feel an unbreakable bond with you, they will leave you. So, you have to be ready to let people go and minimize the pain. I wrote about this in the beginning of my latest book.

Now if you do enough drugs… it seems the plasticity of the brain rewires itself and you will see this stuff when you are sober. This is where I believe many people go insane and can’t find their way back (to a normal reality). This also happens to people naturally too… and we call it mental illness.

Torture can do the same thing (rewiring the brain) to people (by entering the dimension of hell)… for example Theon Greyjoy in Game of Thrones is tortured into becoming Reek (I’m only starting season 5 at this point so it will be interesting to see of the writers let him out… of Hell). But he’s fictional… a real life example would be Shelley Duvall and her torturing during the filming of The Shining. She is now stuck in another dimension and considered mentally ill.

Now to try and bring you back (from another dimension), psychiatrists prescribe you drugs to try to rewire your brain back to what it used to be… but they really can’t (it would be like trying to remold gum back to its original form after you’ve chewed it for awhile). You may see some return to the “normal dimension,” but you will never truly be what you used to be (because you will never be able to “unsee” what you’ve seen) and now you are dependent on their drugs and now stuck in some limbo dimension.

So… TIP #1… STOP USING DRUGS IF YOU CAN’T HANDLE THE WORMHOLE (alternate reality)! Get out of the kitchen if it is getting too hot… And if you don’t want to be trapped in a psychiatry wormhole (another weird dimension)…don’t go on their fucking drugs either! Realize… you can get out on your own and get back to being normal (even though you are changed forever). I’m living proof!

TIP #2… If you are starting to feel the effects of so called “mental illness” (either thru too much drug use or if it is occurring naturally), accept the fact that you may never return to so called “normal” and be GRATEFUL for the incredible experience God (or whatever you believe in) is giving you. And this may help you… You Tube Dauchsy Meditations and look for the one about Gratitude. It works!

TIP #3… Stop thinking you are mentally ill! Understand you are experiencing multi-dimensional reality… and that it’s pure genius! Realize that this is gift and not a punishment from God (or whatever you believe in) and you can use it to benefit yourself and others. Look at how the “Long Island Medium” has prospered even though she claims to have a super power (which most people would say is a mental illness). Does she really connect with the dead or is she really good at reading people? Or is her show totally fake (staged)? Who knows for sure, but she believes in herself and others follow. Believe you have an ability and others will too! If you believe you are mentally ill… others will too… so get out of that thinking… it’s a fucking trap… and it’s making a lot of people rich at your expense!

TIP #4... Don’t worry about convincing people you are right. Unless you can come up with some mind blowing math equation that the world can envision with you (like Einstein)… or… you have the ability to create miracles (like Jesus)… realize it will be extremely difficult to prove visions you are having (though they may explain the origin… of everything… and possibly prove the existence of God). Remember that this was given to you for your world (your reality)… and know that you are right in your reality. So unless you are willing to start a religion (cult) and take on the “shit” that comes with that show, just enjoy the visions for what they are worth (an incredible form of entertainment)… then go back to reality (where you have to earn a living) and keep your visions to yourself. Or use them in a creative way and see if you can profit off of it. I’m giving that a shot with my writings. But if you think people will just fall in line with what you are seeing / believing… you will drive yourself insane trying to convince people. The best thing to do would be to document your ideas (videos, books, web page, etc.) and let them go. Give people an opportunity to be exposed to your ideas, but let them come to you if they like it… otherwise you are just going to piss people off (or possible scare them).

TIP #5… just follow the laws! When you start gaining enlightenment, you’ll start to feel like you can get away with anything (because knowledge is power). And if you start to use the knowledge to hurt others for your benefit… IT will eventually come back at you (and karma is a bitch!).

TIP #6… Find ways to distract yourself from true reality (get a job… pick up a new hobby, help others… etc.) because IT (true reality) will consume you in a bad way if you don’t. Bill Murray in Groundhog Day is a great movie that explains this message.

Those are a few tips to help you remain sane in the real world…. next post… how to handle the insanity of the wormhole (when you are in it)! 😉

When you’re looking into the black mirror and you’re listening to the Pioneers (by James Paget)… and you know what true freedom is… July 7, 2019

You keep coming back to the beginning… sober… and you know it… how to be free (past the 4th)… because the “high” taught you how to see the sky… and now you’re lit. The sky is how you see… and you know you are legit… you’re real. And you look back… at the past… you start to ask yourself… what happened? Why did you set everyone free? Did you have to give up the good life… (lose everything) in order to truly see? The Lord of the Light showed you in the flames what is real, but Stannis was willing to sacrifice it all… give up his beautiful daughter… I know I never will! And thus… I will destroy the Iron Throne… and it’s path to insanity. Fuck that… I will return like the (John) Snow… who knows nothing… except for the eternal spring (back to life). Welcome to sobriety… where you can still see! Hey 3:16…

Don’t get trapped in the black mirror (2D). Learn how to be high/sober… when the high showed you it was all just a dream. And you saw things that made you buckle over… and when you tried to share the gospel… they buried you… like a bull dozer.

But you keep coming back… even though they warned you about “fight club”… you learned to ride the membrane… like a tube off Maui… knocked the chip off… with barely a shrug.

So when the avatars keep trying to hold you down… gravity… that keeps you bound to the ground. How do you get past the Night’s Watch… traverse the impenetrable wall… and not become a white walker? Just have faith… it works out in the end… even though you could fast forward… go on demand… you stay in season 6… watch every second… don’t spoil the end.

That’s how you handle the wormhole… when you’re on the ground (aka… sober)

So… how does G.. see you? 7-8-2019

Look 4 the 4 piece two way mirrors (in the windows)… the light (color) goes through… but reflects back… the darkness splits the middle… forms a cross of dark light… a wormhole of precision… a center point of God’s sight…

Now shrink them down… the pixels (mirrors)… beyond God’s perception… the colors blend together (as the darkness fades away)… solidified by gravity (force of faith)… now G.. can see you…

If you want God (‘s sight) to grow… just add some mirrors… 😉

What does Clegane see in the fire? The reason… is to beat back death…

the Queen is coming… borne out of the storm (free to breathe)… dragon’s breath… GOT IT?

Finding First Light… 7-15-2019

When you come to see what the true title of the story is… how do you find her?

You go back to the beginning (Alpha) to see the end (Omega). How the darkness finds the light… but who sees who (55) first? Does the darkness make a path for the light to be seen? Or does the light penetrate the darkness and peel back the screen?

Then you realize… without one… there isn’t the other. Nothing cannot exist unless there is everything…. and everything becomes too much unless there is nothing.

First light is seen through the eyes of faith… belief is where every story begins… it is where light comes to life… in the black hole (complete darkness) of space.

My Quora entry … 7-18-2019…) How to see (find) First Light… by answering the question… what is inside of a black hole?

Well, I have an imagination (theory) that can picture it though I’m not a cosmologist and I don’t know how original this theory is… but here it is (in a condensed form).

Nothing… it is where the fabric (grid / mesh / strings) of space forms a tunnel (start of a wormhole / string) where there is no resistance (creating gravity in a way). So even light can’t escape it. Since there is no resistance, light (particles of pure information / ideas) can travel even faster and thus disappear (basically becoming dark matter ((anti-matter)) / dark energy (anti-energy)) and ((since light is both a particle and a wave… they become both simultaneously… basically moving information)). The wormhole or tunnel / string shrinks down beyond the size of the smallest particles (basically where there is barely no space / time). This lack of space start to fuse the light back together which causes the string to vibrate (creating radiation ((gravitational waves)) on the outside of the string). The light eventually comes back out of the tunnel (end of the wormhole / string) in some form of star (becoming physical matter / particles again). The resistance (also gravity) of the vibrating grid of strings slows the light particles down to form the various elements that form all matter in the universe.

Now the interesting part is if you can open up a string / wormhole (creating a black hole)… you could literally travel in time (move very quickly) to other parts of the universe… or go back in time / forward in time to see the past or future events. Is this the potential of the Large Hadron Collider?

The other “big” question is… is our universe just a string (wormhole) for even a larger universe? So now we get into the idea of multiple universes. So the ability to travel to other universes / dimensions of reality now are possible. Is that what the big bang was… an opening of a wormhole that light from another universe was travelling to? Will the string eventually close down (collapsing our universe) and fusing the light from our universe to create a new big bang (expansion of a wormhole / string) for another universe?

I can definitely see how this all happens… 😉

So how do you see the Grid? 7-19-2019

All you need is some cameras (eyes) and some mirrors (screen).  Let your imagination run wild… create a movie (scene).  The world will come alive (it’s no longer a dream).  Check out my latest vid… on You Tube… simply called the Grid… (it’s how consciousness is seen ;)…

Gotta help my boy have some faith today… on lucky #7… Michael Jordan… MMXIX

Get him to Pinehurst… maybe then Augusta!

Lol… 😉

now the grid is a code… written in a language that is so well hidden… you cant fucking see it!

But when your high as fuck… you can fucking see it!  Just don’t blow your load… don’t panic…

When you see it… and you don’t shit your pants… when you finally believe it… your’re in heaven…

And you can’t fucking believe it… so you start to see hell.  Because you get sent there when you’re sober…

Because true heaven is unbeliev=able when your alive.  So what do you do?  Do you spoil the surprise when you die.  So enjoy the silence… and believe that Flynn Lives… he wasn’t destroyed at the end of Tron… he left his Legacy  behind… to keep his dream alive… his digital code… DNA… and the Arrival has come… DNA si a digital code….

7-24-2019

So you are in heaven… and you know it… you have the ability to have anything you want… and you don’t have to earn IT…  IT just gives it too you… now if you don’t have faith… on Earth…  IT will consume you and you’ll do something crazy… go for something forbidden… and if IT doesn’t return the favor?

Here is the ultimate question… can you coax IT to come out of the moment… shed the skin.   Can you get GOD to come out? 

Now don’t worry… I’m fixing the Grid as we speak… I’ll show you the bridge… between the synapses… how invisible light takes the jump (like Neo did in the Matrix) and you can create real magic. 

7-25-19 – what is digital DNA?

DNA are chemicals that make up the design of who you are and most people who aren’t scientists know basically what it is… That being said; what is DNA made of at the subatomic (quantum) level?  IT is pictures of your life (set into motion… through time… creating a movie)… AKA digital DNA!  Now you might ask… how could it be possible if time (the future) hasn’t happened yet… how could my DNA be pictures of my life.  So all of you Game of Thrones fans out there… this is the story of Hodor.  Where the future creates the past… thus… the past also creating the future.  This is what our DNA does at the subatomic level.  IT is our lives already planned out and the right chemicals and timing come along to create our life stories / movies.  In a way… the movie has already been made and is now being played out over time.  But since we don’t see the movie in advanced (because it is subatomic… and hidden) we think we are in control (through free will). 

Sadly… God had to create all kinds of stories (tragedies along with triumphs or heaven like experiences along side hell like experiences) in order to make reality real (believable). 

Now the movie Tron Legacy talks about this (digital DNA), but didn’t get into the specifics of what it is.  Game of Thrones beautifully illustrates this with the story of Hodor (but doesn’t explain the role of DNA).  And yes… believe it or not… the cartoon sitcom… South Park… is probably going to get into this idea in their fall season (I saw a commercial for it yesterday)! IT’s fucking brilliant how IT (God) hides this shit right in front of us in the least likely places we would look.

Like I’ve been saying for a few years now… the code (hidden subliminal ((subatomic)) messages) are everywhere!  They are revealing the secrets of life… and all you have to do is learn to see them.  You will be truly amazed by IT when you can see this (see IT) yourself. And if you are struggling to believe me… try smoking a little Ganga and you will see the light… 😉

7-28-2016… When you’re at the Crossroads (song by Lange)… what do you do?

So when you get to your part in the story… after you have “popped” and you don’t know what to do… (do you get tempted by the Devil to take the money and run… Neo in Matrix one?)

You start to remember the lessons from the past (look at Dan Brown’s post from 7-27-2019).  What did the GOAT’s do?  Look to those in the past that did the right thing when the moment was on the line… and in no particular order… Mahatma… King… Abe… Sidhartha… Muhammed… Abraham… Churchill… Albert… (this list could grow quite long).  And even though you may not worship the man… you know what his God-like story was all about… his acronym is famous throughout… WWJD?

You tell the Devil to “fuck off” because you know Who this is all for (entertainment for God).  It is obvious now… and you stop worrying if you’ll ever gain back what you’ve lost… and rise from rags to riches… be beloved… especially by the hot bitches. 

Just send out a message in the land of the lost (aka subliminal frost).  Hide it in a truly creative story in various places… especially on the Dark Web. Then have faith that God will do the rest… knowing you’ve already passed the test.

Stick to your guns and figure out Who you are… Don’t become a negative Lucifer Morningstar… (season 4… episode 6) and turn into a bat out of Hell (aka… Satan).  Have faith that “Father” will stop fuckin with you when you stop being such a rebel (wanting to control everything in your life) and learn to trust in the Grand Plan.  The world will wake up before we run out of sand!

*** I hope everyone reading this is getting my point… I’m giving a little bit of everything in the overall story… drama… comedy… love… sex… science… religion… even mental health (so no one feels left out).  I know I should really just focus on one, but they are all fun or important in their own way (so it’s hard to choose).  I am leaning towards comedy though…

Now I do have a great idea for a funny reality show (a “Real” Shit Show)… but I don’t know if I can get past the privacy laws… and if people know the cameras are there… will they will hold back… and probably just stare?  So this is why I’m going solo with my book, blog, and videos.  Once I get established, maybe I can get past some of the hurdles!

Now I really don’t want to go too dramatic with the story, but It seems like a lot of dramatic messages are heading my way (probably due to the fact that I binged watched Game of Thrones in a month).  Comedy would be my preferred choice because I know everyone loves to laugh… just look at the profiles on Zoosk!  Lol 😉

Last day in July 2019… The F..in debate

So… the debate… 7:20 Central time… I’m reaching … out from the 4^th dimension… time… she’s goin off on Julian Castro… Andrew Yang… yada yada yada… the Asian guy has got some balls… now don’t get mad at me… he said it… Corey’s waiting for the cops… with his blue eyes… trying to warn the population from the darkness… but he don’t got a chance…

Now I have to address … is K Harris (D-Ca…) ready for the challenges of MJ?  Nobody is addressing what is happening to mental health.  As we evolve higher… and it’s accelerating expo… …

I had a plan… how to bring us past the wormhole… using MJ… and I used B-guy’s body… to reach the next plane of evolution… but he’s getting too smart… he’s starting to have faith in eternity… how it is reaching out with Infinity… the math guy… who’s not Asian… like AY… and he’s running for president… I’m Bill HHHH… and I can see Fifth dimensionally… and if this paragraph isn’t proof of blinding faith… and their losing battle… the Democrats… right now can’t out-faith Trump…

But I can… 🙂

And if I can’t break through… I’ll vote for the hotties 😉

8/23/2019

It’s now two days my dad’s birthday… but he’s no longer here to celebrate it (RIP pop!)… and I’m at the point where I’m wondering whether the effort I’m putting out to spread a message is worth it… because consciousness is a constant battle… and when God (or sub-consciousness) can hear you and activates the avatars (in your mind ((think of the movie Inception))…) to resist you… because you understand too much… that this is your world (through your senses)… and the avatars don’t want you to destroy their world (through their senses)… so it becomes a constant fight… even when no blood is shed….

Then when you get to the point in the story where it seems like true honesty is dead (that life is mostly about lying)… where do go from here?  It’s taken almost 3 years (for me), but when you finally accept multiple universe reality (aka the dream world) as life and that faith pulls it into existence (reality)… do you give up the accelerants (drugs) that make you truly aware of this?

So… just to tell a little story.  I went on a little trip to Europe recently where I visited London, Paris, and Amsterdam.  Now you can believe me or not about the truth of this story, but when you reach (personal) enlightenment, it will feel as everything happens for a reason (everything that happens and everyone you meet is a setup). Question is… do you want to believe it?

Now… my best piece of advice for when you are aware of this and it’s freaking you out a little… don’t panic and look at everyone and every situation as a guide to help you.  Don’t ever look at them as the enemy… otherwise it is possible that you will end up on the evening news doing something horrible (trust me with this!).  I know I’ve repeated this advice quite a bit in my writings… but it is crucial to understand this sense of higher awareness.  Especially as consciousness keeps evolving (getting higher) on its own (naturally) and with the legalization (of marijuana and other drugs).  Remember, the goal (of consciousness) is to make it to heaven… not descend into hell!  The multiverse will present you with both options… so what will you choose?

Now, I’m not trying to write another book, so I’m not going to give every little detail of everything that happened to me on my 8 day excursion throughout the continent.  But I will highlight the most intense experience of the trip and it happened in Amsterdam.  I met this dude (at my hostel) from Argentina who had a slight resemblance with the face and hair to Jason Mamoa (named Ramiro) and we first went out to see this band called “Brass Against” for which I made a short video from (on my YouTube channel).  Afterwards we got some pot and truffles (mushrooms) to where we visited “the other side.”  I really don’t remember too much except for the fact that the world started to look like a hall of mirrors (and I never made it to Versailles ;).  On the one hand it was incredibly beautiful, but on the other hand it was painful as hell (and was so intense you almost want to go “Bird Box” and die).  It also felt like we were “Gods” and we were trying to convince each other that our view of the cosmos was right.  The more we resisted each other, the more tension it caused (and it felt like an epic battle of wills… a form of Armageddon).  At one point he seemed to glow like a God and I even said he looked like Zeus.  I had a red, white, and blue sports top on and felt like I was representing the U.S. and the ideals of freedom.  I felt like he was representing the rest of the world and conformity (just blending in /obeying).  Obviously these were some pretty intense drugs we were taking and he seemed to be a lot more in control than I was (he seemed to have more experience using these drugs).   Eventually I got to the point where it was too much information it hurt so bad that I started falling asleep when I sat down.  Fortunately he had the faculties (with his phone’s GPS) to get us back to the hostel where we just went to sleep.  But before I went to bed, I saw colors like I couldn’t have imagined, but (overall) my perception was… I was at the gates of Hell.  I’m glad I didn’t go through… 😊

So when you get to this level of awareness and can see consciousness beyond its surface… you get the impression that this is your world (seen through your senses).  Now how far do you want to take this belief?  Could you take it to the level of becoming a true God in this world… meaning this world (as a human) would have to end (and you will die)?  Is this what drugs really do to your mind… do they make you believe and see things that you can’t imagine when you are sober… but are real… especially the idea that you are God… possibly in heaven (or hell)?

Now my last drug experience was way too intense and tho I can look back and marvel at the visions I was having… it was far too painful of an experience (when reality warps beyond recognition) for me to want to keep experiencing it (thus I’m really considering giving up the drugs).  I would truly love to get back to a “normal” life, but never forget my new understandings of reality.  I’m not sure how many books are out there about drug induced experiences of schizophrenia, but I hope mine will help certain people understand what may be going on (if their world is out of control)… and it may just explain what is happening to people when this occurs naturally (dementia, alzheimers, schizophrenia, autism) in the brain (as the “mirror” neurons get either hyper-activated or deactivated).

Now this entry is getting really long and I want to start wrapping this up, because 3 years is a long time to run a psychological experiment on yourself.  Maybe one day, my unique “case study” of the psychological effects of drugs on the human psyche will get me some kind of recognition or awards… we’ll see.  But I’ve also come to the realization that this may have been simply a “glimpse” (like the movie Family Man)  to help me live the rest of my life in a more grateful mindset. 

Either way, I am truly grateful for this experience.  It has given me the opportunity to understand some of the biggest mysteries of the universe.  Though I can’t prove them mathematically, I know (remember) just how “real” they felt and that will help guide me for the rest of my days on planet earth (to live in a loving way towards my fellow human beings). 

Here are some additional tips / analysis from this web page…

1.  The “halo” effect is an awesome realization when you are high!  You will feel this buzz (when you are sober too) surrounding your head and be amazed, but realize, this must be how dark energy / matter creates your consciousness.  It’s pretty cool to connect science with religion.
2. Speaking of religion… Avoid creating rituals that might be considered religious (unless your goal is to create a new religion).  Mine wasn’t / isn’t, so I stopped doing them when I realized I was getting caught in that trap.  My goal is not to create a new religion that will now compete with the established religions or atheism.  My goal is to show how all religions / atheism are “right” and can accept each other as an aspect of ultimate reality (ultimate consciousness) and not have to fight each other for supremacy.
3. When people give you the finger subliminally… learn to laugh it off like I did… or find a way to subliminally give it back.  This can actually be fun!  Once again… God (or Ultimate Consciousness) is “fucking” with you and probably wants you to “fuck” with IT back.  Remember… this is all entertainment, so I would try to make your life a comedy as much as possible. Save the dramas and horror shows for the movies / tv shows / books… LOL!
4. To understand consciousness (and where it begins) is to understand that it never truly begins (or ends)… it’s just slightly ahead of you.  The best example I can give of this would be the story or Hodor (Game of Thrones) and you will know what I’m talking about (I don’t want to ruin it for those who haven’t seen it.  And to connect that story (Hodor) with a specific religion (like Islam)… if you look in the Koran (Quran) 29:19… “Do they not see how Allah originates the creation, (and) then repeats it: Truly that is easy for Allah” and 29:20… “Say: “Travel through the earth and see how (Allah) originated the creation: Like this Allah will bring forth a later creation (Hereafter):  Verily, Allah is Able to do all things.”
5. One of my biggest questions deals with the medical use of marijuana.  Marijuana caused a perfectly “normal” person as myself to have the ability to see schizophrenia (and quite possible other disorders like alzheimers, dementia, autism).  Could marijuana have the opposite effect and bring people back (that are experiencing these disorders naturally)?  I know this is controversial, but I’m sure there are doctors out there that would have the means to experiment with this. 
6. And with the legalization of marijuana (and possibly other drugs) around the globe… be prepared for more people “popping or gaining enlightenment” and possibly doing crazy things.  Stoners won’t be harmful like with other drugs (especially alcohol)… some just need to learn to clean up after themselves and get off the couch and contribute more to society (many do!) and maybe sober people won’t be afraid of them or annoyed by them!  LOL… 😉
7. You will also come to understand “homelessness” better and why opiate drugs are the most harmful out there.  They make you feel “heaven” too much and all you want to do is lay around and sleep (which is just a burden on people who do work in this reality).  It’s sad to see what is happening to cities like San Fran and L.A. with the homeless epidemic.

Ok… I know I could keep going with this, but I need to start earning more money so I can get out of “Salem’s Lot” (M&M) and not “lose myself” anymore.  I AM starting to regain my faith that I can do this sober… but I definitely thank God for the “high” life IT provided me.  It’s definitely been a personal awakening (enlightenment) that I will never forget! 😊

8/30/2019

So I had a pretty cool dream just before I woke up this morning and it dealt with the realization of the balance of darkness and light.  Understanding that with light… there is more information… thus more weight.  So darkness (being much lighter than light) has to be the more abundant light in the universe to keep weight balanced and reality (life) possible in this universe.  This is why in Avengers Infinity War Thanos talks to Gamora (when she is a little girl) showing the how the knife balances on her finger.  And why he believes he needs to snuff out half of the life (light) in the universe.  Thanos believes there is too much light (life) in the universe and by using darkness (evil)… will create a balance that will benefit the remaining life in the universe (improving their quality of life because they won’t have to fight over limited resources).  What Thanos doesn’t realize is that there is plenty of space for all life to exist in the universe and with the power of imagination… resources can become unlimited.  So it’s surprising that Thanos doesn’t realize this when he gains all the Infinity stones and uses them to create unlimited resources for all life in the universe.  See this is where “God” or whatever you want to call “IT” has to make us stupid and subconsciously tell us that we can’t have abundance in the universe (or in reality on planet earth).  This does create good drama to entertain “God” (aka Ultimate Consciousness), but it’s sad that so many have to suffer as a result of this form of entertainment.  Alright, I could expand on this metaphysical thought for quite awhile, but I’ll lose most of ya… so it’s time to start talking about day to day “shit”

So there are some interesting stories in the news recently (as always), but I’m going to try to give you a different perspective on them… psychologically, how they relate to my theory that WE are all God… subconsciously.   So stay tuned… 😉

9/2/2019 – Happy LD… btw… 😉

So… it’s time to start talking about stories (news) that people believe in and get away from scientific theology for awhile.  Though I love exploring theories (ideas) about the cosmos, I know there is a limited audience for that topic and I realize it’s all about the audience (entertainment).  So lets see if I can combine the two and expand my audience. 

Who is the biggest entertainer in the world… right now?  I would have to say… Donald Trump.   How does this fit with my theory that we are (in a way) all God?  If God (or whatever you want to call IT) is infinite… then it is everything (including all people).  Now if you look at prophecy… and most people (in the world) are familiar with Biblical prophecy (especially with the idea of God coming back to earth… a second coming ((or final judgement))… of ((by)) Jesus… or an “advocate”), Donald Trump is starting to fulfill this prophecy (claiming to be the “chosen one”).  Now what is kind of funny about this idea (I believe) is that anyone (if God is infinite) can claim the title, but the hard part is convincing a very large amount of people that you are the “chosen one.”  But we can now see how Trump is well on the way to claiming this title (or a “real” version of the Iron Throne… GOT IT? ;).  Donald Trump is currently saying this in a joking tone (so he doesn’t sound crazy), but is laying the ground work to eventually be serious with this notion.  He is saying this with his trade war with China and with his support of Israel.  It’s only going to grow as time goes on, but he is also running out of time to ultimately make this claim and why he wants to win the presidency in 2020 and has even advocated for an extended presidency (beyond 2 terms). 

And with the legalization of marijuana growing (and the pot increasing in potency), more and more people will start awakening to this reality (realizing WHO God is…. Aka Finding First Light… or gaining personal enlightenment).  When WE start discovering WHO… WE are, it’s going to get very interesting how the world changes (when everyone starts to realize they are God of their world… seen through their eyes / senses…)  So the big question of all the ages is coming… WHO is going to rule the world?  Do we want one person (like a Donald Trump) at the top… or… do we all want to be at the top (equal in the eyes of God)? 

I’m amazed now when I look back at a song like Tears for Fears… Everybody Wants To Rule The World… and you relate it (the lyrics)  to the infinite nature of God (or whatever you call IT… String Theory?)… and realize just how long God has been sending this message (subliminally… for almost 35 years).  Then you realize it (subliminal messaging) has been going on since the beginning (of time) and we’re entering a new beginning… where I hope we don’t follow just one person to heaven (like DT)… because according to prophecy… we’ll have to go to hell first… so… I hope you’re listening (God / everybody)… let’s find a way to the golden highway… together!

And Finally (to end this post)… I want to give a shout out (aka… prayer) to “Crazy” Mary (who used to be on the Mancow radio show from time to time).  I met her last night at a local bar and she seemed a little lost.  I pray she finds her way home… I tried to send her on her way… but if you could help her if you run into her or at least say a prayer… I’m sure God would appreciate IT… 😊

9/4/2019… find the black window

When you wake up from that dream… and you’re listening to the stream… of consciousness coming at ya (aka dark energy / dark matter).  The thoughts that electrify your brain… and you know the answer to stop the pain… of darkness… do you tell the world?  Because they are going to call you insane to think you know what dark matter / energy is (especially when you have a hard time doing simple algebra… let alone… complex physics).  But it’s amazing when you know you are right and you know that wormholes are tunnels of light… and when you close your eyes you can see the thousand points of light…

Now when they (God) come(s) at ya… what do you do?  Do you stay calm and never panic?  Or  do you start the fight?  This is what the Devil (aka Satan… NOT Lucifer) wants you to do.  Especially when you die… when you become part of everything (darkness to light) do you seek revenge?  Or do you die with forgiveness in your heart? 

This is how the world will start to change for the positive… forgiveness… empathy… love.  The Trinity of the Light.  Walk everyday in the calm (the eye of Dorian) while the storm rages around you.  Don’t ever lose sight of the spiral of sight (wormhole).  And when you go… back to the darkness (matter / energy) when your time on earth is up… don’t look to even the score with God… focus on the point in the middle of the cross… your window of opportunity to find heaven is a short one… don’t try to punish the boss! 😉

9/6/2019… He’s at it again…lol!

Now to give you a unique perspective on the President’s mindset… according to God (my theory… that WE are all God). 

President Trump believes that hurricane Dorian is going to hit Alabama, but according to the weather Gods (at the National Weather Service), Dorian will not even come close to Alabama as it seem like North Carolina is now the possibility for landfall in the U.S.  And the president seems to be doubling down his efforts (tweeting) to convince the public he is right.  So… what are we to think of this… has the president gone crazy or is he trying to prove his faith?

So, to rewind (and go back in time) a little bit…  I’m having a cup of coffee at 6ish in the morning reading the local paper (NW Herald) and I came across this article… Storm Spat Underscores Trump’s Mindset… by Jonathan Lemire (Associated Press).  Now this motivates me to write another blog entry on my webpage that gives a different perspective on the President’s mental state.  Is he just a huge narcissist or is he mentally unstable?

I believe he is trying to prove his unwavering faith (and that he is God)…

In my blog entry (9/2), I talked about how Trump is on his way to claiming the title (that he is the second coming of God).  Now in order to do this… you have to do things that are in a way miracles (which requires unwavering faith).  And if Trump can out predict the National Weather Service (using faith)… he would have some good ammunition to start seriously making this claim. 

So far, Trump has done a pretty good job using faith to create an incredible life.  Though he was born with an advantage (being rich from the get go)… he still has quite the resume for accomplishments (tv star… POTUS…) that is not easily achieved by the other rich people who have tried. 

I’m also pretty sure that most people know that Trump never admits he’s wrong or will throw out many conspiracies that get people (his followers) to doubt the validity of the press. 

This is what faith is…

… and God is not wrong (technically) ever!  But here’s the catch.  Most people (that believe in God) believe God is out somewhere in space (or beyond).   

Psychologically (according to my theory), Trump is in a mild state of dementia (schizophrenia brought on naturally by old age).  In this state… you start to see (believe) you are actually God (incarnate on earth) and that faith creates reality (in your world… aka your mind).  Now if you can get people to see your world (and get people to cross dimensionally out of their world into yours)… you will actually warp reality (for everyone and now you have true Power!).  Now the only person to have been able to do this (historically) was Jesus (assuming he was actual history).  Now I’ve seen this world (schizophrenia), but I had to use drugs to get there (like most people… I’m not naturally schizo…).  Trump has claimed to have never used any drugs (even alcohol), so this must be occurring naturally with him, or he’s lying about his drug use.  But mark my words (from a previous blog)… that superconsciousness is coming… and somebody is going to claim the throne!  I personally don’t want the throne, where my reality becomes everyone’s reality (thus becoming God).   I believe there has to be a compromise (with consciousness) that WE can all be God of our worlds and not ruin the planet at the same time.  🙂

9/9/2019… 3 years and counting…

Wow… how time flies!  It’s been 3 years since my first “eye” opening experience (where I started seeing how everything is connected).  At first IT was heavenly, but something was missing… a sense of TRUST that my life was good and there was no need to rock the boat (change what I had).  So I decided (subconsciously… ((aka… using blind faith))…) to see what life would bring me if I rocked the boat (consciously thinking life would get even better)… and I ended up losing everything and everyone… and my experience turned into Hell!

 But I’m still here to tell ya… there is HOPE.  All you have to do is gain some FAITH that being alive is Heaven (especially when you are sober) and God (or whatever you want to call IT) will stop fucking with ya so much (creating Hell). 

The fact is… it’s really simple (how to escape Hell)… just start each day with an attitude.  And I would suggest this… What incredible adventure will God (or Life) bring me today?  What awesome new information will I learn today… if I just pay attention?  How can I add to God’s experience (contribute to Life) by being positive in all situations?  And most important… have FAITH that God (or Life) is guiding you to evolve into a higher dimension (a better type of gravity… where pain goes away).

And I’m telling you… you’ll see things come back to you… and IT feels great!

9/17/19

So the answer is obvious… have some faith… when the BF leaves you… she’ll come back… in the black… not AC/DC… get rid of the slack… tighten it up… just gotta have the track… to slow it down… and realize you’ve got the reins… you can feel it… in your veins…. The red lightning…. Blood of life… destroy the pains… especially heartache… 😉

When she’s got you Stutter(in) the night… because you know When The Good Guys Win… it’s more than Granger Smith talkin to ya.

Now when you know you’ve found heaven and you don’t want it to end, but time keeps going by and that person has to leave ya, how do you find her again? 

I’ve been neglecting a big part of the story (because I’ve been trying to make the story too big), but you have to start asking the question… what does your heaven look like?  What do you want to see… when your time ends?  Who’s going to be there… and in what capacity?   Especially… who’s going to be your B…F… that makes you high (when you’re in heaven)?

I’m not sure why… but I’ve been given a rare opportunity.  I’ve been privileged to see the other side… before my time ends.  And I’m trying to find that path… that leads through the “eye of the needle”… aka “heavens gate.”  But what I’m discovering on my way to finding heaven… hell wants to survive… IT doesn’t want to die and is going to fight to hold on to you.  IT (hell) wants you to go it’s way (on your way to finding the origin… or… original wormhole ((of light))… aka God).

But if you start talking like this… especially when you are high…they are going to bolt (like dark lightning) and disappear.  So stop trying to impress the masses (spectrums of light) with your pure G..enius.  Let it out slowly (when you are sober) and let them come to you with questions… but try to be funny… when those tough questions come around.  Let them know you fucked up… because you are human… forgive yourself (for the “bad shit” you’ve done)… and forgive them (for the shit you might be offended by)… and maybe you finally Find… your First Light… 😊😉

9/19/19… 3 nines with 2 ones… have we hit date’s heavenly gate?

When you close your eyes at night and you see the thousand points of light (of that tunnel / wormhole)… comin at ya.  Focus on the distance and you will see the dark circle that starts the space.  Is this what H.W. was referring to in that famous speech? 

Just don’t lose faith when the “black mirror” shatters (hell rears its face)… just have some faith it’ll keep working… next time… get a better case!

Now … on to a topic you might relate to.   I heard this guy on talk radio saying that we should have as many children as we can and if we need a new planet… we should just go live there.  And I’m stunned as I’m listening to this guy talk… is he insane?!  First of all… has he ever seen Prometheus?  Does he think this planet is easily replaceable (that a new planet will be easy to live on… even if it has a similar ecosystem)?   We know what this planet is like and know for sure we can survive and prosper here.  Why destroy earth in the name of population and economic growth?   And he has the gonads to evoke God in his reasoning?  God gave us earth (aka… the Garden of Eden) for us to take care of… not use and abuse until it’s no longer functional.   

What we need is a new economic system… not a new planet.  We (as a global society) need to stop pumping out our national interests so much and realize how the planet is all connected and work with everyone to make our world a prosperous one (for all) that will also sustain itself.

And the only way I’ve seen to make this truly happen is to get rid of the isms (capitalism, socialism, communism)… basically… get rid of money.  The only way to do that is to create optimum efficiency in the form of a Resource Based Economy.  It’s described very well at a website called The Venus Project.

Check it out… 😉

9/22/2019… fall from grace…

Fall (autumn) is upon us… my Mind.(is)in.a.box. full of broken legacies… but hearing a World of Promises… the dark night starts the tale… giving one side of fate… but the angel of light brightens the day… talking about the future (of…)… what IT might bring?  Do we want the darkness to steal the show?  Or does the light in our hearts start to glow?  Just close your eyes and what do you see?  Is IT a future (world) full of promises… or the dark shadow full of lies? 

So on the lighter side… of something we can all see (in the news)… AB (Antonio Brown) is giving up on the NFL… tired of the double standard.  But what AB doesn’t see… nobody wants the rebel on their team.  He believes his immense talent is all he needs to carry a team to the promised land.  That Joel Osteen believes anyone can find (watched his sermon this morning on TV).  Just have some faith that you will be great and “God” will do the rest.  Sounds easy Joel (and I believe you are totally right), but God is also going to throw the kitchen sink at ya… bring you down… like Antonio Brown.  What a shame such an immense talent is now going to go to waste (a fall from grace), because he can’t slow down his ego.  Is this what happened to Lucifer (the “rebel” when he realized he was God too)?  Is this the Id that Freud was talking about when he decided to take on consciousness?  See, we can talk about IT in so many ways… because this is Infinity (eternal ideas / experiences). 

I’m predicting AB goes and makes his own reality show… just be willing to say and do some “crazy” things and people will tune in… look at how it helped Trump! 😉

9/25/19… whistle while your work…

So, I’m hearing the whistle blower is goin off on Trump… now the Highline is in the Airpods…  the BUDD is comin alive… not talkin about the high-wire… I’m talkin about the Origin.. Club Mix.  Now I’m a whistle blower of a different fix.  I AM the blow back for consciousness… letting you know the inside of the subconscious mind… how to see the daily grind.  What it all means… entertainment for TIME.  Just check out my latest plug on my Facebook page… IAMwill… and while you’re there… check out the “crazy vids”… then go to my WTF (Youtube) channel… as the “crazy reels” keep coming (start with Shit show teaser)… all these are highlighting my latest book… Finding First Light. (sorry about the plugs, but I’m working on my new career… whistleblower extraordinaire…).

Now… when you’re listening to the BUDD and getting the natural Highline (OCM)… you can see the square tunnel (wormhole of light) that is either moving towards you or you towards IT.  Either way… it’s a passageway to another dimension… where there is a truth… that you want to believe… so what is IT?

Is he guilty?  Or will he get another reprieve?  The Trumpster never seems to find the dumpster… seems to always wiggle his way away from the fray.  Is his faith that insurmountable?  Or his he just that good at diverting the attention away… while staying in the spotlight… pure genius… pure sight.  But he will eventually pay for the deceit… he won’t be able to criticize everyone for going against him… the name calling eventually gets old.  Seems like this whistleblower has some good shit this time.  But Trump is a master entertainer… he knows how to push the line.  Great at getting people to doubt their senses… “don’t trust the fake news… believe me instead”… that’s how he stays ahead… of the game.  Let’s see if Impeachment gets attached to his name? 

Looking forward to the “shit show” continuing.  Enjoying IT from the stands.   I’ll keep “whistling away…” and maybe one day… I’ll get on the stage… we’ll see what God has planned… 😉

9/29/2019… So you keep seeing cool things… but something keeps stopping you…

I keep seeing the black holes… how they work… just like the pupils of eyes… they are the pupils of the cosmos… dark tunnels that suck in all light.  When I watch Black Hole Apocalypse (on Netflix)… all I can see are EYES… and when they go subatomic… micro-black holes… must be what dark matter is!  They are tunnels / strings / wormholes that suck in light at one end (where there is no space… aka another dimension ((aka different vibrational membrane))…) and it comes out the other end (points of light… in the form of pictures / ideas / imagination come to life… aka real matter) in our universe (space).  I can’t prove it mathematically, but for some reason… IT just makes sense.  And the part of the documentary that talks about Stephen Hawking dawned on me as an example of Hawking Radiation (the pictures… in motion… that become life… inside the space)… it has to be light (information) that opens up the space (aka the wormhole).

Now I made a little video… for my WTF YouTube channel… that highlights my ideas with the documentary… but for some reason… I’ve had the most difficult time posting it out.  My computer keeps running out of space… even though I cleared out a bunch of files and apps.  It almost feels like somehow I’m being sabotaged, but if I believe that… am I just being crazy?  Hopefully I get it on my channel soon.

And another thing that I keep discovering every time I hit the sky and I start letting out the “secrets”… everyone seems to run away or verbally fight back.  It’s like they are subconsciously aware that I’m up there and are trying to sabotage my efforts to spread the word (of ultimate knowledge). 

I believe the “sabotage” is real because it has to be there to keep consciousness in check.  Otherwise everyone would become God and now you might possibly have a real fight on your hands (Armageddon).  So, don’t get mad when you realize how consciousness is there to keep you down… don’t seek revenge. 

See… when you use the “boost” (drugs) to gain enlightenment… it’s way too easy to gain faith and consciousness wants you to earn it (have faith when you are sober).  So, when you are high and can see / feel heaven and you know it’s real, but… it seems like nothing ever truly works out (and you sort of end up in hell).   This is the downside of drugs and why I believe they become addicting.  You keep reaching for that feeling (which is awesome), but the real world seems to go to hell on ya. 

If you want to truly find heaven on earth… you have to do it sober.  Those that have faith sober seem to be the most successful people and seem to avoid the “sabotage” the most. 

So, you’ll come to discover how drugs (like MJ) make you aware that you are “hybrid”… what I like to call a humangel… and you’ll discover the wings in your heart, but be warned… you have to believe this when you are sober… otherwise you’ll see the sabotage come alive… and you’ll lose things.  Hopefully, you’ll become aware of this before it’s too late and do something stupid to prove your faith.  Realize consciousness is stopping you… until you prove your faith… in a sober state.

On a side note… I watched another Netflix documentary called the “Pyramid Code”.   And they brought up an idea that the pyramids of Giza used to be white (Great Pyramid), red (middle pyramid), and black (smallest pyramid).  And the cool thing that came to my mind… how these pyramids represent the color spectrum from a quantum perspective (black being the smallest color… and why it’s basically invisible).  And since I’m writing this sober… I have faith IT will all work out… LOL 😉

10/2/19… IT is easy to see… how to defeat Hell

I’ve been writing quit a bit about (what I like to call) IT… which is basically infinite… and you can add ETC… to everything… and you still will never reach the limit… of IT! 😉

Last night though, I went to go see IT (chapter 2) of the Stephen King version.  Now IT (more specifically is Pennywise the clown), but you could call him a version of Satan (or the devil) and basically he likes (enjoys) putting people through Hell by scaring the shit out of them and causing pain and even death.  Now if you have seen the first IT (when they are kids) they defeat PW by overcoming their fears (face him head on) and taking away his power over them… thus drive him back to the shadows (for a period of time). 

But obviously to have a continuing story ( a sequel)… he returns 27 years later and they regather (as adults… because they promised as kids they would… ) to take him on again.  But they forgot what took him down the first time and have to relearn that knowledge.  But it has to be the same formula…  they just find it (remember it) using different methods then when they were kids.  

Now not to give too much of the movie away (because I don’t want to ruin IT for you… lol ;)… this movie basically shows you what Hell could be like and how you defeat IT if you ever find yourself there (either in a current state of reality… your life… or possibly if you find yourself there after you die…). 

Remember that reality is a construct of your mind (your consciousness) and you create that reality as you go (or move through consciousness… using time).  If you let fear take over your reality… you will create the reality that you truly fear!  But if you want to overcome that negative reality… you need to stop fearing what IT does to you (remember… IT was designed to “fuck” with you… to keep you down… which makes you human).  You can see this message everywhere.  And especially in movies like IT… or Justice League… or Rocky… or Rudy… etc… that fear needs to be overcome if you want to send yourself (or even the world) in a positive reality. 

So… since the message is everywhere… why aren’t people figuring this out to send the world in a positive direction?  I believe the answer was provided in IT (ch2)… simply put… WE KEEP FORGETTING!  And we continue to let fear control our lives!  So turn to whatever you need to (to remember)… religion… new age philosophies (like the Secret)… or just plain and simple positive thinking… realize that God (or whatever you want to call IT… aka Infinite) is constantly sending this message.  IT’s time to wake up!.. and realize WE are in control of this reality… and WE can defeat Hell on earth if we believe in a system that takes care of everybody… and up to this point I haven’t found anything better than a “resource based economy” (a la Jacque Fresco… Venus Project).  We just need to let go of the fear of a world that doesn’t need to use money as the main form of control (over consciousness).  I just hope we remember Who We are before our fears create a reality straight from hell (aka our worst nightmares).  I hope we start talking… about IT…

10/9/2019… Is money the problem?

One of the biggest issues I’ve been internally debating (besides my individual desires) since I’ve gained personal enlightenment is the role of money.  Is money a good thing for society or a bad thing?  On the one hand it does provide incentive for people to take action and get some things done that people either want or need.  And it does provide a measure of control that consciousness seems to need so it doesn’t go nuts with personal desires.  On the other hand… it’s easy to see the destructive nature of money and I’m pretty sure you can think of many examples and spare me the extra typing. 

So when you reach a certain level of enlightenment and can see how reality is a construct (a matrix) of the past, present, and future (involving your surroundings) that can be experienced all in one moment (a Trinity of Time)… how do you come to master your environment (or manipulate your surroundings to your advantage)?  How do you get ahead in the game (which currently uses money)?   This is what most of us spend (focus) a good portion of time and energy on every day of our lives. 

Now I’ve argued that we should change our economic system to a “resource based economy” which is the idea that we produce goods and services with such efficiency (creating abundance) that money basically disappears.  Now the only real downside I can see with this economic system is the fact we would no longer be able to gamble… and possibly the end of the NFL… lol.  So we would definitely lose some forms of entertainment and obviously a lot of power over each other if money went away… and are we ready for that? 

The big problem with keeping money is that we have to keeps things inefficient (in order for scarcity to make money real) and this requires slowly destroying the planet.  So the big question is… will we leave future generations a planet that is livable if we don’t change how we do economics?

And the current mood (zeitgeist) is to only debate (especially in American politics) which monetary system works the best (capitalism vs. socialism).  No one (influential) is really bringing attention to the idea that there is an alternative (to some form of monetary economics) out there (probably due to fear of being labeled some sort of crazy socialist).

And the simple fact is… you could actually create a society with both (you could have a compromise), where money plays a role… but not the primary role it plays now.  It would no longer be a problem in society (that is destructive), but a way to enhance the quality of life and make life that much more enjoyable. 

I hope somebody truly influential starts talking about this, so not only can we save the planet… we can save American Football too…

IT can work… you can bet on IT… 😉

10/11/19… Let’s see if you can read me… 😉

When you’ve discovered heaven… when you can see (s.b..)… ABGT…173… J..T… and the Paragon is hitting the fan… consciousness is trying to keep you in check… bring you down… making you deal with the car dent in the rear end… or reading about the problems of JWoww and her boyfriend… or people giving you the B…S… and you know they’re lying to you… but somehow trying to claim innocence… got an excuse for the poor treatment they’re giving… you can read right thru them… because they make no sense…

If you can read what I’m sayin… don’t let G.. ruin the party… don’t look at it as sacrileg…. see the big pic…. That G.. is talkin to ya… tryin to set you free… giving the energy to give you space… it’s called negativity… think of it like Group Therapy… Luci… the Id is necessary… for a true reality… because it creates Identity… which creates a dent in the fabric of space… warps the black hole… gives you a place… to radiate… like Stephen Hawking… one of the highest members… of the human race… remembered by just about everyone… for overcoming a disability… and changing the way… we look at reality… without starting a war…

Are you reading what I’m sayin?  D….. T…. 😉

10/13/19… The Joke(r) is on (to) you…

Went to go see Joker the other night and I must say I was quite impressed with JP’s version of the Joker though I’m still partial to Heath’s version more.  With that said… the movie brings mental illness to the forefront and shows the harshness (alternate reality) can bring to an individual.  Now, you can walk away with many different interpretations about this important issue of society, but I will give you a unique way to look at this movie (and mental illness). 

I have written quite a bit about the “infinite” nature of God (or whatever you want to call IT), but if God is “everything”… then that would also include mental illness.  So in one respect mental illness (or alternate reality)… can be looked at as pure genius (how you can manipulate reality) as well as a sad (because you break from accepted reality and basically lose everything). 

Now Arthur Fleck chooses to go towards evil due to his surrounding circumstances (abuse that he has suffered throughout his life) and decides to fight back.  But I believe he also realizes something unique about reality and decides to keep it a secret.  You’ll see this at the end when he is laughing and his therapist asks him what is so funny and his last comment to the therapist is “you’ll never get it.”  Arthur seems to understand that he is the “God” of his reality and it doesn’t matter what happens (to him or others) because on one end of infinite reality… nothing is real… so everything (even death) becomes a joke… and thus funny… and he can’t help but laugh about it (uncontrollably).

In the early parts of the movie, Arthur believes his uncontrollable laughter is a mental illness condition and thus has a card apologizing to people for his inability to control his laughter.  The reason I believe it was uncontrollable is the fact that his subconscious was out of control (knowing this secret information ((about being “God” and can get away with everything)) and resulting in laughter), but his consciousness wasn’t truly aware so he felt bad about his laughter (and it even seemed to hurt him physically).  By the end of the movie… and realizing (becoming fully aware) of this secret… he seems to embrace the “joke” and realizes nobody will get it and thus fully transforms into the Joker.

Another movie scene that I believe shows this idea where lunacy is genius (thus funny) is in the movie “Lucy” where they give the drug addict the blue drug (that makes fetuses “wake up”) and he starts laughing uncontrollably (because he understands “the secret”) before he gets killed. 

This is where I believe drugs make us laugh more as they  bring on a sense of euphoria (creating a “heaven like” experience) where nothing is bad (as our subconscious “rises” making our consciousness understand that it is in a way… God) and the problems of reality go away (even death no longer is a big deal if you get “high” enough, because you understand that God cannot die) which makes us laugh more.  Get it?

So to me, this movie (Joker) has an incredible underlying (subliminal) message about the infinite nature of God and why I have made the claim (in previous writings… that are found in my current book… Finding First Light) that God is actually “crazy,” because God at the infinite end has TMI. 

Mental illness is not a joke… but I hope you understand that seeing reality as a joke is a big part of mental illness.  JP’s version of the Joker brings this idea out beautifully and like Heath Ledger… deserves an Oscar for this performance.

10/15/2019… Look for the signs in the web and behind the Oakley’s

When you see the Girl in the Spider’s Web… look for the wormholes… and you’ll understand the code… it’s all a game of chess… how to stay ahead in the game… defeat your greatest rival… take down your sis…

…or if you’re focused on Baby Driver… understand it’s tinnitus that gives him his ability… to have complete faith in his driving… but all he really cares about (behind the Oakley’s)… is his girl… his music… and surviving.

I can give you examples all day long of how to see the code… I hope you will some day see the big picture… you’ll never enjoy the silence… G.. will never stop talking to ya… so F… Depeche Mode…

The web will always keep you coming back for more… just take off the Oakley’s and look into those eyes… the black hole of the past will trap ya… IT’s August’s surprise… 😉

10/22/19… remembering is the hard part…

When you’ve reached personal enlightenment and the outside world is telling you… don’t invade my world with your “crazy” beliefs… listen to what they say… but don’t ever let them win (by giving up what you believe).  They are trying to get you to forget what you know, or to doubt it to the point you don’t believe in it.  Don’t FORGET… quantum physics is where it all starts.  Faith (at the quantum level) is what creates reality and the laws of physics don’t exist at the quantum level.  Your consciousness is where it all starts (where there is basically no space) and you can imagine any world you want.  Now where space occurs (and the laws of science start to take over) we have to have similar ideas about what governs that space.  So this is where “God” (or whatever you want to call IT) had to create the laws of nature (repeatable observations that all consciousness will have faith in ((i.e. gravity))…).  So in this realization… your ideas (beliefs) help to shape reality, but don’t define it completely.  Ultimate consciousness will never let your beliefs totally dominate this universe (where you become “God” of this universe).  So remember… we have to learn to share this universe… meaning… we can all believe what we want about God (at the quantum level)… and let science rule the space (especially the economy). 

We are all the “Gods” of our universes (between our ears)… I believe all religions preach this doctrine in some way shape or form.  But where religion goes wrong (I believe) is making you believe that their God rules the universe we all share.  For example… is this where Jesus went wrong and got crucified for it…  claiming to be the “One” way to the Almighty…?  Or was this necessary to show you (help you remember) how the spirit (or conscious energy) is in you?  This is where you need to be careful when sharing your beliefs… we don’t nail people to crosses anymore, but we definitely crucify people in many other ways (especially in the media).

So don’t be afraid to share your beliefs, as it helps to shape reality… but also don’t be so adamant that your beliefs actually become ultimate reality.  Remember who you are and who everyone else is (part of ultimate consciousness) and we can find a compromise we call all live with (creating a “heaven” on earth).  I have faith (remember) that IT is possible… IT’s easy to see with the help of MJ… you just have to remember what you learned… the next day (when you wake up)… 😉

10/23/19… Let the Glass Break…

When you see the Lights & hear the Music (song by Cut Copy)… that day you were born… are now on your mind… reality now comes to life.  And when you watch (the) Glass… and can see the break… in the Night…. Bring on the light… that M(akes)… you think… the Shy.ma..n can see the future… where man has no limits… and the Beast shall be released… when Hedwig lets go of the light(s) and can hear #23…  Mr. personality…  MJ… calling the game…. that the Horde prefers Drake.

Now when humanity starts to awake… realizing the potential of man… is beyond human… all we need to do is “let go”… of that image in the mirror… don’t be afraid of the water Dunn… just let the glass break…

10/24/19… Free (the) Animal… (by Foreign Air)… Listen to IT… if you choose… 😉

So there are messages everywhere!  And you are at ease with this whole new reality you can see… You no longer believe you are crazy… you can finally just be…  Schizo… is just a word… you don’t believe it’s crazy to see Glass and hear Free Animal and connect what you are made of… vibrating particles… at a certain frequency… patterns of broken sound… brokenness that calm the particles down… to be solid ground.

Now here’s the conspiracy…  the powerful don’t want you to be free… so they slow down your frequency… by dumbing you down… with things like mercury… and constant mental negativity. 

Why is this our reality?.. because if we can release the beast in everyone… some people won’t be able to control their ID… and their God like ability… and if their mind no longer believes that reality… is real… they’ll go nuts and send everyone to hell.

They don’t trust that we can wake up and increase our vibration… without going psycho… they have no faith… that God (or whatever you want to call it) can calm the beast… and revelation will go on repeat.

I broke the code btw… freed the animal… and I’m still in control (high vibration… but calmed down)… just playing chess right now… so fuck the fear… the beast is really a pussy… just listen to Foreign Air…

Your move… 😉

Touche… 10-24(11/12)-19)

I know… this is getting good… now there is some drama…. As I have done something… I understand something… that is truly extraordinary… how you see something… so real… now before you give up hope… don’t give in… motivate the troops… go deep within… your soul…  find the Jinn… Shadow Moon… find the lightning… inside your mind… have faith that God is blind… help him see how darkness helps him see… the silver lining… when you break away… and find heaven on your own… through the light(ning)… don’t be afraid… when you know G.. is talking to you… Billy… wake up… it’s the ghost… of all time… I’m whole… cosmos… yes… I AM… the one… to tell the truth… about everything… bu..t if I don’t have enough faith to get out of this… I want you to know I tried 😉

Are there any questions? lol 😀

10/30/19… The Gift… by Killigrew (listen ((to IT (((me)))…))…  if you choose)…

I’m on the most incredible trip… life’s drip… into the cosmos… gravitational waves… from the sound… of base… and high pitch… when you finally understand death… you become alive… you see your kids… your best friends… from home… Okla… and AZ… then you see… how life is just a fantasy… that God gave you to be free… so choose heaven… when you enter Hades…  I did… before my last breath left me…

Life… (is) The Gift… from Eternity (I AM ((is)) on her side… aka… Infinity)

11/6/2019… Do you follow the Policy of Truth?

So I’m camping out(side) of LA… and I’m starting to wonder… what to say… next.  I feel like I’ve covered my tracks (all aspects) of what to expect when you “pop”… but the problem that I run into is… information is everywhere and you are so aware now… you don’t even need to be high… to hear the hidden messages in the sky… and I keep wanting to write… “listen to this song… watch this tv show… understand this movie… check out this advertisement… etc… etc.”

But what can I really do… to break through… and do I really want to?  Life is a mystery… and do I want to spoil the fun?.. by clueing everyone in… to eternity.  Will some want to go Bird Box?  It’s that intense… when reality doesn’t make sense… but you keep hoping to find the vortex (that Abraham Hicks talks about) that will change your life… as heaven comes alive… and starts granting every wish… if you will only have faith.

Now you want to follow the Policy of Truth (Depeche Mode), but will your problems multiply… if you faithfully pursue… IT… and you wonder… did they know… the truth when they wrote the lyrics?  The idea of being honest about the unknown… that you know… is everywhere… in every song… that has ever existed… and that is just music.

But you know you must keep going… and the best policy… is to be honest (when everyone ((aka God)) is watching you… IT is the truth (final revelation)… 😉

11/9/19… watch (out) for the N-word…

So I hit the club last night and at 10 they opened up the dance floor… then the rap music filled the room.  They had the music videos playin overhead so you could see the music while it played.  The N-word seemed to be on repeat.  But the message was clear… when you lose the fear and don’t give a f… you can go to a form of heaven filled with money, cars, drugs, and endless hot women with the jiggle butt.  Where the party goes all night long… IT comes to an understanding… that the N word is all about an attitude… and with IT (attitude of faith)… you can have anything you want (creating a heaven like state).   Faith can create (through fusion) any world you want… question is… what does your heaven look like?  Just be careful if you use IT (the attitude)… IT (hell) may bite you in the ass before you enter heaven’s gate… 😉.

11/11/19 – The Veteran’s Date… but how do you enter Heaven’s Gate?

4 ones… lucky #s… sign of fate… but how do you enter Heaven’s Gate?  The Eye of the Needle… the ultimate prize… Jesus could see the problem… it was in his eyes.  Heaven is when you understand you are God and can have anything you want (in an instant).  Psychologically, you understand that this is your world (through your senses) and you can manipulate it through faith/belief (pull the multiverse ((of possibilities)) into this world ((the known universe)) and actually warp reality ((make it manifest)) to whatever you desire).   

To become God (and go to heaven ((and get whatever you want))…where there is no pain)… the  perception is… everyone else (must go to hell ((because they won’t be able to get whatever they want or have to give up something to you)) thus becoming human and…) experiences pain.  So as a human (in this world)… God (aka ultimate consciousness) will never let you experience an existence where there is no pain.

Now when you die (your body goes away and your soul becomes part of dark matter / dark energy and) you can experience anything (through everything), but how do you enter heaven (where you don’t experience pain)?

Veterans give us a clue… it’s called sacrifice.

Be willing to give it up… let go of the idea (that you are God and can have anything you want) in this world.  Your kingdom is in the next world (where you don’t have a body). So, If you are rich (and have power in this world)… can you give it all up (knowing it will come back to you in the next life)?

11/11 is a day to remember… who you really are… the big question is… can you sacrifice it all when your time comes… and have faith you’ll make it to heaven again? 

11.13.19…  Here’s another thought to weigh in on…

So… let’s go back to some scientific theology! 

I know… I’m not an accredited scientist or theologian, but I got some cool shit (ideas) to share with you and I’m just putting them into a category that someone can make sense of… plus I love talking about this shit (it’s fucking fun ;).

Now, when you feel the “halo” buzz around your head… what are you dealing with? 

I believe dark matter / energy is moving pictures (of potential reality).  I know I can’t prove that scientifically (mathematically), but it makes sense (to me) if you think quantum (a place of extremely small space where only ideas can exist).  Now I would assume that gravity (which I believe is the power of faith/belief) gives everything weight… so pictures / ideas would have to be the lightest things in the universe (of reality).   Now we haven’t been able (as far as I know) to measure dark matter / energy (but the Large Hadron Collider looks like it is getting close ((the deeper it goes breaking apart particles))… ;), and I believe our head senses it when we are “high” and that is the buzz (or vibration) we feel.  We actually feel the weight of ideas (or dark matter) coming into our heads / brains (through dark energy) giving us thoughts to guide us through reality.  When we are sober… we can’t feel it because our vibrational state is too low to sense it (thus we believe they are our own thoughts), but when we increase our vibrational state (when we are high)… it becomes apparent.  The question is… does anyone recognize it or are they blinded by the drug to not believe it’s real… and pass it off as a result of the drug.

So the next time you get “high”… become aware of the halo around your head and realize that the holy (invisible) light is scientific in nature.   It’s just a little bit of weight on your shoulders 😉

11/16/19… Who’s keeping us in the dark…

I’m gonna take a stab in the dark and give ya a possible explanation for what dark matter is (in a creative / descriptive sense).  Now I’ve already suggested that dark matter is pictures (of reality)… that are so small… they seem to come out of nowhere.  So how do the pictures work in reality?

 First, is to understand that size is relative to the space it occupies.  So what is small to us (in our space) might be very large (in another space / dimension).  Just as our space (universe) might be very small (subatomic) in another space.  How do we know where space ends (in one place) and begins (in another)?  Aka… Alpha / Omega… We don’t… as our consciousness (senses) only perceive the known universe (roughly 14 billion years old). .. and  thus… we cannot see God (aka the connection to all things).  We are blinded… and must rely on faith (in stories ((aka moving pictures))… ) to make God real.

So dark matter must be tiny black holes (which are the beginnings of a universe or wormhole) that has a certain reality (potential light / information) for this universe (and the consciousness that perceives it).  I believe our consciousness perceives these subatomic black holes as specs of light that come together (like a collage) to create a real (physical) image (through the faith / belief of a conscious observer).  And when consciousness (in different forms) can agree on the same image (have faith that it’s perceiving the same thing)… dark matter now becomes real matter (as the wormhole takes shape).

Every time I get high now I can perceive reality where everything is real (even fictional stories ((which leaves me in awe (((or heaven)))…))… ) and everything is not real (making reality feel fictional ((which is can be very painful (((or hell)))…))…).  It seems as if I can sense dark matter / energy (aka subconsciousness) now.  Is this the beginning (Alpha) and end (Omega) of consciousness?   

IT’s all about wormholes (tunnels of light that start with a black hole and end with light emerging from that tunnel… in some form of a star).  And consciousness (aka WHO?) perceiving these spectrums of light and darkness.

Now, you may not believe a word that I have said here (since I have no experimental data / math to back up my claim), but it’s amazing (the feeling I get) to know (or have complete faith) that I am right about this idea (especially when I am high on marijuana). 

And to give an example where you can see this subliminally is in the movie Focus (Will Smith / Margot Robbie) where the Rolling Stones song “Sympathy for the Devil” is used to show how “who… who” (#55) creates reality (through faith).

Is this enlightenment?  Is IT the ability to see how reality works (or the understanding of the meaning of life).  WHO knows if I AM right… we’ll see eventually… 😉

11/20/19… Where are we… and WHO is talking to us./?

A question will come to pass… where are we?  Is this a black hole that creates space (for life to experience itself)?  And what does this hole mean?  Spiritually, are you the Devil that found Heaven, but God won’t let you enjoy it completely?  Or are you God that found Hell and the Devil won’t let you fix it completely?  I know these are some strange questions, but one day you will ask when you can see both sides of reality. 

Now when those thoughts come into your mind… WHO is talking to you?  Is God just the future (humans) talking to the past (humans)?  Does the movie Interstellar give us the clue to what consciousness (aka God) really is (consciousness talking to itself thru time)?  Can you see how Interstellar and the story of Hodor (GOT IT… 2) basically tell the same message (how the future shapes the past and the past shapes the future)?  Do they (aka US in the movie) use dark matter / dark energy to talk to us?  Is this how a tesseract works for real (as you listen to Etherreal by ASTRAL CLOUD… that purplehaze… Less Than Zero…but the perception is nothing… quantum data… does this answer your Quora question… Matt Swedlow)?  Is gravity love or is it faith or are they the same thing G.. ?

WHO knows for sure… but the questions remain… 😉

11/23/19…. Law of Attraction… are you creating heaven or hell?

When you reach enlightenment, you will understand the law of attraction (how faith creates reality).  Now I’ve listened to Abraham Hicks (who is a Guru with the law of attraction) and she uses terms like “source”… which is code for “God” (aka subconsciousness).  She gets into how to attract the things that you want (which is code for creating heaven on earth), and how to get out of being stuck where you don’t get what you want (aka hell). 

So how do you manifest what you want (create heaven while getting out of hell)?  Faith is the key … believe you already have it and let go of wanting it.  Buddhism covers this aspect quite well.  Desire (wanting) creates pain (negative energy) which now prevents you from attracting what you want.  The longer it takes to get what you want… the more pain (negative energy) you create and you will never manifest it.  So Buddhism is about getting rid of desire… which only causes pain. 

So how do you focus on what you want without actually wanting it?  This is the hardest part (biggest obstacle) with attracting / manifesting certain realities.  Gratitude has to be the answer.  Being thankful for every moment that comes your way while time catches up with what you envisioned (your goal).

So how do drugs play a role in this process?

Drugs raise your vibrational awareness to where you can see dreams as a reality (as they can give  you unwavering faith), but if your sober state (of vibrational awareness) can’t envision (vibrate) to the same level of faith (when you are high)… you will not manifest what you envision.  And it may become very frustrating that you can sense the dream so clearly, but yet it never seems to manifest for you.  Is the process too fast and thus the timing never seems to match?  Becoming aware of this is the key to using drugs effectively (and bypass the long and difficult process of achieving enlightenment naturally).

Some people have found that ability (i.e. Bill Maher) to match their frequency (of belief) whether he is high or sober.   So this is why a user like BM seems to create (attract) an incredible life (in heaven), while other users end up with shattered lives (and possibly in hell). 

Now until you are ready to handle the pressure (or gravity) that heaven brings (which is intense), you better be grateful what hell provides you while you are on the journey.  If you can do this (be grateful)… you will find your way through the abyss and not do anything insane because you feel you deserve heaven and seem to be getting hell.

BE PATIENT… HEAVEN CAN WAIT… ENJOY HELL (REALITY) WHILE YOU CAN.  THEN YOU WILL CONTINUE TO GAIN (ATTRACT) WHAT IT IS YOU DESIRE… AND NOT LOSE EVERTHING. 

12/2/19… video is the way to go (today / future)… but writing keeps it so simple (like in the past) 😉

I know… I should be making YouTube videos or writing a screenplay if I want to really get in the “Eye” of the public (aka God).  But here’s the thing… God comes at you in mysterious ways.  My way is way too obvious… thus… I have to go on the dark web and take on the demons of being a lone blogger (rebel) that most people can easily write off as “crazy”.  But those that are also “aware” will know I’m not crazy.  Enlightenment (or true awareness) is a bitch to handle, so you got to let it out slowly, because TMI will cause you to lose your mind.  So… once again… use your creativity to explain the unexplainable (and why fictional stories are a good way to go)… but here is another (real world example) to be aware of…

 The Shakes – when you take drugs and your vibration goes way up… you will get the shakes (it is especially noticeable with the hands and this will more than likely freak people out).  Now, what is happening?  Biologically you are having a mild seizure, but you are awake (so it can be a little scary).  Spiritually, you are becoming aware of your wings (if you believe in angels) or you are becoming aware of your karma (if you believe in that shit ;).  Now, you probably have noticed this happens with old people naturally.  As the body decays (dies), you are losing dark matter that dampens your vibration (keeps you solid and stable), so your vibration becomes more noticeable as your spirit is getting closer to being released back into the cosmos.  Drugs just accelerate the process, but most people are unaware of this and just believe they are experiencing a high.  Psychologically speaking… you are gaining faith and can start warping your reality (through the laws of attraction).  Problem is… do you truly believe it?  Most people don’t because you give credit to the drugs and can’t fully believe (or have faith).  True faith comes from being sober (and still believing in the Holy Spirit… aka vibrational energy… or karma).  A great movie that subliminally shows this is The Book of Eli.  This is plainly shown with Denzel Washington’s character when he can do miraculous things, but he also shows people he doesn’t have the shakes, when he holds out his hands.  He in a way is a “true angel” or what I would call a “humangel”… half human… half angel.  A hybrid!  And with that… the ability to do miraculous things (kind of like Jesus;)

The “shakes” also happens when you get cold (aka the shivers), because “true” Heaven is cold (opposite of Hell… which is hot) and makes you aware of your wings or vibration. The shakes also happen when you get scared /nervous (thus becoming more aware of hell). Alright… I could really stay in this wormhole for awhile (and explain how your body is trying to balance out heaven and hell by shivering ((or sweating))… or when you are scared you are losing faith and going to hell… and you are trying to fly back up…), but I want to hit the links today, so I gotta go! lol  😉

12/4/2019… twin flame / soulmate… who do you choose?

When the Snow (white) falls upon the mountain and looks perfect in every way… do you follow the Jeanie that may help you dream of a day… where your heartache goes away?  Or maybe you’re just cold (on the inside) and could use some hot chocolate? lol 😉

So here is a topic I know everyone is interested in… finding love!  We all want it and dream about it… why?  Love is connection… and that is ultimately what God is (or whatever you want to call IT) and we are all looking to reconnect to IT… because we separated from IT when we were born (which made us real).

Now there are many forms of love (or connection ((aka… fusion energy is you look at IT scientifically))… ;)… from family, friends, pets, or inanimate things (like music, sports, etc.), but the most sought after love seems to be the one that involves sexual intimacy… because you are truly connecting (by physically bonding) with that person. Which also makes it the most difficult to achieve (unconditionally and make it last eternally) and the most controversial (thus is taboo in many cultures and highly restricted by higher forms of consciousness… humans). Why? Sex really is ultimate connection (and thus can create life) and most humans currently can only accept ultimate connection from male-female (from the same species) / non-family / and emotionally mature (adults), but this is changing over time (evolving… like with homosexuality). Now I could get diverted and keep explaining this shit (about ultimate connection), but the point of this entry is not explain all the “unique” forms of sex and why they happen (which would explain some of the “crazy” side of consciousness), but why most people are searching for that “One” person that truly completes you and how to find them.

A big part of my book (Finding First Light) is about finding “the One” (described in the fictional sub-book… Edge of the Kingdom)… that person that makes you feel happy no matter where you are or what you are doing… as long as you are together… nothing else matters.

So is that person (the One) a “twin flame” or “soulmate”… and which should you want or choose?  Now I thought I knew what these things were, but after Googling them… they can be quite a lot of things based on which website you explore.  And I’ve come to the conclusion that it is all “bullshit” in a way.  Yes, you can take anything… give it enough faith / belief and it now becomes real to you (which is the same thing with making God real).  And quite honestly… just like God… it’s there to confuse you (aka “fuck” with you) and bring you down… because you start to desire it and your longing for it now makes it difficult to achieve (like the law of attraction describes). 

“So what am I going to do about it?” (if you are talking to yourself).

Nothing…

The answer is to believe (or have faith) in faith!  I know that sounds ridiculous (and Bill Maher would have a field day with me over IT), but it makes sense when you really think about IT.  Believe in nothing and now IT (nothing) becomes something… now… everything has the potential of becoming real!  Now all you need is space (time) to allow it to manifest itself (become solid) and now it is a reality!  Big Bang 😉

Call IT Eternity/Infinity… call IT Alpha/Omega… call IT Above/ Below… IT doesn’t matter!  IT’s just a game (of consciousness) creating reality (space/time/ matter/motion ((energy (((waves)))… ((((vibration))))…)))…))…).  Get IT? 😊

And like I stated near the beginning of this very long blog (or wormhole of information)… “stop trying to beat the game!”  Everything (especially intimate love) comes down to a choice (aka free will). All of this shit (ideas) we come up with (i.e. soul mate/ twin flame / Who is God?) is there to make us think we can beat the game and somehow find a quick way to heaven (aka… making the “perfect” choice).  But what it really does is make us doubt (if we are not following the right steps according to which ideologies we attach ourselves to)… and when we do (doubt)… we usually end up in hell (where nothing ((that we want)) manifests itself) by making the wrong choices.

So all we can really do… to truly find heaven (with the Ultimate One)… is to have faith that God (the Ultimate One) will provide you with opportunities to enjoy a moment with someone (just… love the One your with and forget if they are the perfect choice). Now if you are patient… faith will bring you your desire (aka… ask & you shall receive ((or the law of attraction))…) and your One will come. All we need is to have focus… and empathy (aka love) for whoever you are with.  If you have any doubts… just listen to (the lyrics of) Crosby, Stills, & Nash (they might have a better explanation ((than what I just gave)) that people can truly understand…).

😉😊

10/12/19… The sabotage (aka the test) is meant to weed out the unworthy…

So you are wondering why God is always fucking with you… why it seems as if you are always being sabotaged.  Understand… heaven is only for those that are worthy.  Think of Heaven as trying to be a Navy Seal.  Only the worthy can become a Seal… those that can withstand the greatest pressure and somehow pass all the tests.  Being an angel of God (earn your wings so to say…) is a similar type of test, but it has to do with faith.  When your faith is tested… can you withstand the pressure and Keep the Faith (Bon Jovi).  The weed taught you how to see… don’t let them (demons) drive you out!  😉

12/16/19…. Why are we condemning God (The Father) to be all alone?

So an interesting question (once again) has come to mind… why is God the Father in Heaven all alone (and ultimately blind) and is there a God the Mother (that is hidden… and also blind)?

Now I don’t have stats to back this up… but if I were a betting man and you took a survey asking people who God is… most would say it is a man (aka The Dude ;).  And a good portion of those people would say he’s hangin out (in Heaven) with another Dude (His Son) and a Bird. Sounds peachy… LOL 😉

So is there a Mrs. God and where is she?  Most people would be appalled if you suggested God (The Dude) has “a Chick” (or a love dove 😉 and likes to get laid (physically  connect through sex) like the rest of us (humans).  And if you look at Christians, they like a virgin mom (for having His Son) and shun the idea that Jesus ever did the deed (like others have suggested… i.e Dan Brown’s DaVinci Code).  Thus taking women (and sex) out of the divine equation… but why?

The answer is simple… Ultimate God (aka IT) needed to create space (separating light and darkness thru the Big Bang… or anti-connection….) where ideas can now meet reality (or experience) through time.  So God created images (male and female) that are now separate from each other (that now have to reconnect through sex in order for life ((more images)) to be created). So sex is really the big fucking secret (lol;) and still treated today by many as taboo (forbidden).

The result is… God the Father is up in Heaven (with all the great ideas), but can’t physically experience them (so it kind of sucks… which is another form of Hell).  So He had to lose Her (through separation) and now She is hidden (what Muslims like to call Purdah). Thus God (Father and Mother) experience reality thru all life (but especially thru humans)

So what happened to God The Mother?  She basically disappeared (became hidden… in the Darkness) because we forgot about her.  Yes… we remember in certain ways (i.e. Mother Earth), but we don’t give credit where credit is due (that she is also true divinity).  Is this why strict Muslims like to veil their women (Purdah)?

The Big question now becomes… if God the Father were to reconnect with God the Mother… would space end (aka the Big Crunch)?

Maybe… so we have in a way condemned ultimate God (or IT) to be separate (and be all alone in Hell unable to have sex) as the first two entities (light and darkness ((aka The Father & Mother))…) cannot have sex (reconnect) for a given amount of time?

I know… my head hurts a little trying to piece this idea together (because there are many tangents I could go on), so I’ll stop for now… 😉

12/23/2019… the Sun is standing still… almost time to wake (and go) up!

The winter solstice is up(on) us and we’re waiting to rise… we are starting to remember Who’s birthday it is… IT’s the Christmas surprise… to see (into) the present (time… just give it a second 😉).  The cross is the clue to infinity’s breakup (you can see IT in my video that I downloaded today on my WTF ((YouTube channel))… the easiest way to find it is search “shit show teaser” then click on the WTF icon… then look for my video “Quantum mechanics simplified ).  You will also see how MJ (#23 of DEC) will let you in… just don’t let him make you go “Birdbox” (and commit the ultimate sin)… just… trust her (Mary / Jane)… that the wings that make you go up… won’t let you fall… don’t give in to the Devil’s lies.  See the gift you’ve been given (by Her)… IT is the gift of life.  Then watch my video “How to see time”… Saban understands what IT takes (to succeed in life)… if you don’t have enough faith… you can hear him talking (in my other video from today)… hard work is the other way to success… when talent becomes your greatest weakness… and you start to stand still…

12/24/19… Twas the night before X-mas…

Yes… another Christmas Eve and you’re wondering what Santa is going to bring… I know what I’m asking for… but let’s just keep it a secret… 😉

Now Skywalker has risen… and the light of the world will be (re)born tomorrow… but Who only knows who that truly is… so whose faith is the strongest?  Who is Christ…

We’ll see tomorrow…

12/25/19… Mary Xmass!

So it’s Jesus’ birthday… right?  Not quite… historically we know it’s bogus.  The Bible even alludes that it (JC’s b-d) was probably in the fall or spring based on description.  So Who(se) birthday is it?  Most people are starting to learn that it’s about the movement of the Sun… a(cross ((in))…) the sky… and if you rotate the cross a little… it becomes an X. 

Now I could go on some crazy (creative) tangents with this idea, but that would get a little offensive to most people, so let’s keep it simple.  This birthday (or celebration) is about light (being reborn) and becoming mass (or weight).  Light is symbolized as a cross, because if you look at it closely… you will see a tunnel (or wormhole) which gives space for the light to now move (which gives IT weight and IT comes to life). 

And light can turn into anything…

So Who…se birthday is IT?  Well you can pick any name you want and create a story to fit whatever agenda you want.  Right now, Jesus has the best story so far to date and why he knocked Mithras out of the spotlight (for this date).  But I’m gonna say… don’t forget about his Mother (Mary ((J))…)… the spirit of women as the savior is rising… just look at Rey… (is she the new Mockingjay?) 😉

12/31/19… Remember… for the New Year (decade)… don’t be Bran!

So… if you’re sitting around feelin blue that life is getting the best of you… remember the message from Bran.  Do ya really want to know everything is going to be alright in advance?  Look at how bland Bran turned out in the TV show.  He doesn’t laugh… doesn’t cry… never gets nervous or excited.  I mean he turned out to be a fucking bore!  That’s why fans hated the end… everything is now going to be perfect because Bran can see everything (in advance).  It would be like a football coach seeing the exact perfect play to call that would lead to a win every single time.  Would you want to tune into that game?  Of course not, because you want the drama of not knowing. 

So with the New Year/Decade coming soon.  Make a vow to not worry about the future.  If you feel positive… nothing really bad should happen to ya… but realize… God has to fuck with ya a little… otherwise your life would be bland… like Bran… so enjoy the ups and downs of life… GOT IT?  😉